i dunno what to write about.......ive been very eventless today.....it's been boring as hell =o\ lately ive been having an undying craving to hang out with some girls to....but now that ive moved and i have no way to get around im kind of fucked on that happening for a while...damn..i miss all ma friends....even the leeches! oh and btw "leeches" are girls who be all cuddly with you and shit but you know they only do that shit for your cash so its like.."take me places and buy me things and i will luv yew!" sometimes it's worth hanging out with em..but it feels sooo much like prostitution it isint funny.
Anyways.......i went to work again..amazingly we made it out the driveway and down the beltway, then after hours of shoveling we find out that the manager was told last night to tell everyone in the company to stay off work tomorrow......so...that fucked me out of three hours pay...oh well..i didnt work that hard anyways heh. i must find healthy food..i feel as if im getting fatter..but i dunno, my parents took my scale to their house..soo i may gein 50 lb and not know about it
!! ...weight is to much of an obsession for me..like after bein a fat kid i really dont wanna be one again but...then again i usually eat to damn much during the day so it freeks me out and i have eating disorders ..it blows so much. im thinkin i can stay same weight and just eat healthy by rationing ma intake of shit with water..like if im not full after eating the portion i set for myself ill just drink shitloads of water untill i am.....that might make me extremely thin and loose all muscle mass i have tho so...i dunno...food fucks with my mind. i hate it..but yet...i dont. ok....enough mindless jibberish. bye 
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Anyways.......i went to work again..amazingly we made it out the driveway and down the beltway, then after hours of shoveling we find out that the manager was told last night to tell everyone in the company to stay off work tomorrow......so...that fucked me out of three hours pay...oh well..i didnt work that hard anyways heh. i must find healthy food..i feel as if im getting fatter..but i dunno, my parents took my scale to their house..soo i may gein 50 lb and not know about it
!! ...weight is to much of an obsession for me..like after bein a fat kid i really dont wanna be one again but...then again i usually eat to damn much during the day so it freeks me out and i have eating disorders ..it blows so much. im thinkin i can stay same weight and just eat healthy by rationing ma intake of shit with water..like if im not full after eating the portion i set for myself ill just drink shitloads of water untill i am.....that might make me extremely thin and loose all muscle mass i have tho so...i dunno...food fucks with my mind. i hate it..but yet...i dont. ok....enough mindless jibberish. bye
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