alkatraz

<3 CRICKET <3


Heres your fucking update bitches.

i got bored at work today... so i bought some glue and extentions and made the other chick i work with do my hair. so now i have black extentions. neat.

every fucking day since i last wrote:

get up at 6am
school at 8am
out of school at 130pm
work at 145pm
out of work at 930pm
TRY to see my boyfriend and friends1000pm
head home 2am
get to sleep 3am
......

For the last 5 days. so thats like... ugh im killing myself cuz i never stop going.. and i dont want to be one of those fuckers who DONT see their friends.

i have made one friend at school so far.. Dustin. hes cool beans and like.. the only dude at La James right now! lol
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the other nite... girl pants boy... like.. we were hangin out and stuff cuz i told him the other day i didnt want him anymore.. so he like.. INSISTED that we hang out.. evne tho i told him i had plans.. anyways.. he shows up at my own and waits for me... so i hung out wiht him.. he found out about Travis.. so he wants to KILL travis... and he wants to hurt Cricket for even looking at me... so basically hes like.. obsessed and like.. psycho.. he wants to hurt anyone who looks at me like they WANT me.

anyways.. hes gets on my phone.. fucking yells at travis and tells him how badly he wants to hurt him.. im freaking out and shit... then like.. my phone dropped somwhere... and like... we were in his car (cuz his cd player works.. mine unforturnetly has the Senses Fail:From THe Depths Of Dreams stuck in it for the past 6 months.) then he looks at me all crazy and is like "i'm the only one you should be fucking! you know i care about you! then he climbs on me.. and starts kissing my lips and stuff.. and then he puts my hand on his penis.. so i like was reaching around for my phone untl i found it.. made an excuse... ran into my car.. called Rosie... (they were all at Travis's) so i drive over there at like 80mph.. and i wanted to tell Cricket what happened soo badly... but when i walked into the house i started crying.. cuz i thought i cheated on him and stuff... so i locked myself in the bathroom for like 45 minutes... then like... somone came in. and saw me.. and then everyone was like "what happened!!" and travis was trying to comfert me.. and then rosie told Asphyxiia..so she ran over... then everyone found out.. and then all the guys got together.. and grabbed weapons.. and went out to find him and hurt him.. meanwhile Yessica and Asphyxiia were trying to call him and tell him to meet them somwhere.. and saying i with them. so i could kick the shit out of him.. but i dindt want to go.. so Cricket stayed wiht me at Travis's... i was crying so hard.. all my makup was like.. dripping off of my face.....


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i FINALLY made out with somone (Cricket) with a lip ring in! i actually doesnt get that much in the way of things. eh!

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I really like Cricket. EVEN THOUGH:

1. hes underage
2. forgets to say bye to me somtimes
3. he never has money
4. almost constantly high
5. likes to bite
6. has a weird little stoner laugh
7. lives across the river
8. brother has herpies and makes sexual advances at me
9. somtimes hes acts like.. well a 16 your old boy.
10. he has a fan club of girls his age at school thats fallow him around (and i cant be there to kick their asses)

i dunno. i guess hes a good boy somtimes.. looking out for me.. telling me i need to go home to go to bed cuz school is the most important thing right now. its going to be my career.
i am patient enuff to wait for him to grow up, and get out of his boyish phases


as soon as i get a pic of him. ill post it ya you guys.






PS sorry i havnt written in a while busy busy like a fuckng beaver.