alkatraz

Okay....life is sooooooooooo confusing. maybe its just guys though..... Montana guy moved without another word said to me.... a week later girl pants boy called me... claiming that he DID inface have feelings for me.. eventhough he never told me.... he said he wants to forget about the whole situation that happened the night, and we can be friends first.

I have been talking to this guy Sean (hes 25) for a while, he thinks i'm all sorts of great, and one nite we were watching movies at his house, and we were play fighting on his couch and b4 i knew it he mad my wrists pinned down on the couch and he was like.. rubbing his lips against mine trying to kiss me!! and i couldnt get up or get away from him..ugh!

There is this other guy i have been talking to for like 2 months, ( Tim, 29yrs old ) and i'm like.. so what if hes 10rs older than me and has a 2yr old kid.. i hung out with him one nite and he kept staring at me ..and i'm like "what are you thinking" the he grabbs and front of my shirt and pulls to him and starts tryign to make out with me... i made out with him..but ugh!!

I feel like a toy. cuz neither of them have really talked to me since those things happened they are all non chalant about things like that happeneing like it happens to them alll the time.. which kinda freaks me out a bit...

well i'll be starting school at La James college (for cosmo and hair dressing) on March 20th!! hehe so exited!! i'm FINALLY doing somthing wiht my life! but then i was like ... i hate TOys R Us..gotta get outta there.. so i went to Sally beauty supply and i went in there and i was like "i need to talk to your manager" and she gave me an interview on the spot! and then after i left.. an hour later she calls me and says im hired.. so then next day was the first day there.. i actually was schedualed at TRU at the same time.. so i called in at TRU, and yesterday i put in my 2 weeks notice at TRU. they are kinda sad.. ive been there for like 2 years. buts it like.. this job im taking now will be career related.. i'm making 6.50 starting out. and at TRU with my raise im only naming 6.18.. so booyah assholes! hehe

I'm hungry... and horny... two nites ago i took a nap... at 7:30pm after i got out of the hot tub.. but my nap lasted like 14 hours... i got up and went to Sally... i wasnt tired at all so i didnt sleep that nite... then next morning i went o TRU....and then i took at nap at like 6:15pm.. and i just woke up about an hour ago.. maybe i can finally get on a normal sleeping schedual... my life is like.. i have no live nevermind.. its been being out til 2am.. being on the comp for like 6am. me sleeping til 5.pm.. and its a vicious cycle.. its not my fault all the other interesing ppl are night ppl... no one ever want sot do anything when its light outside. i mean.. there are some weeks where i can go 2 or 3 days without seeing the sun!!! i'm going to get sick..

In any event!!!

I am NOW taking applications for a nice boy/girl friend!!:
here are some things im looking for:
1. insightful
2. thoughtful
3. creative
4. not a complete idiot
5. kinda...dangerous!
6. tattos and piercings are ALWAYS a plus
7. have to be a music lover.
8. a mind of your own. no sheep please!
9. you have to know how to treat me like a lady, not a humping post.
10. be fricken open minded

i think that is a few of the.. must havs there!!



Fill this out mutha fucka!


1. Name:

2. Age:

3. sex (not do u want it...are u a girl or a guy?):

4. pictures?:

5. body mods:

6. job?:

7. okay, where at?:

8. why you think you are worthy, of me:

9. your not going to force me to have sex with you, are you?:




okay, neat.

-*LOVEEEEEEEEEEE TIFF!!*-