Suppose i should right a proper blog now...
Life has been interesting to say the least. I got promoted at work to aftermarket manager which pretty much means i'm in charge of 90% of the store. The amount of shit i have to keep track of in ridiculous but the pay increase is nice for sure. I love what i do. Bikes are my life and working in the bike industry makes me happy, i just hope i can stay in it and make a decent living.
I've had a few flings with girls, nothing serious ever came out of it due to the girl becoming a crazy control freak or my ongoing fear of getting close to anyone after my ex destroyed me from the inside out. I want to be with someone. Me and single life have a love hate relationship. I like the freedom to go out and meet new people and explore different people but i hate coming home to my cold empty apartment, i miss having someone i love lay on my chest every night and to cuddle with in the morning. i miss saying I love you.
Something i wanna touch on regarding SG and all you lovely ladies out there. I understand that there are a lot of creepers out there and a lot of fucked up vulgar douche bags on the internet and on this site and i also understand that most of you have like 937493784 guys messaging you and what not but, my question is, what would be the proper course of action to actually making friends on here? i mean, isn't that part of the purpose of this site? to meet new people and share ideas and art and all that other junk? Now, don't get me wrong i'm not pissed or frustrated in any way but i come on here everyday and i read all your blogs and i get a small glimpse into your lives. Some more open and revealing than others. after a certain amount of time and reading blog after blog i start to genuinely care about some of you and whats going on in your life but some of you really steal my heart, and i'm not going to name names and be the creepy guy but those of you who have, who i genuinely want to talk to and become friends on more than a comment here, comment there on SG basis. I'm not a creeper, i'm not a stalker, i have a genuine heart and a level head on my shoulders but i hate being that guy that try's to message a girl or comment and at least make my existence known and feeling like that pathetic creeper guy. One girl on here and i'm not gonna put her name on here like a weirdo but she has really stolen my heart. She plays amazing guitar, she can sing. Every time she posts a video of her covering a song i melt inside. She's gorgeous and every time i read her blog she reminds me of my best friend that was violently taken from me 3 years ago and it kind of makes me sad to think that she'll be nothing more than a blog on a website. I hate thinking that i'm going to go through life not getting to know these people and not exploring every possible friendship with these amazing people who have been cool enough and brave enough to let us into their lives on here. Anyways, input.
ok, im done for tonight. here's some of my photography crap.
Life has been interesting to say the least. I got promoted at work to aftermarket manager which pretty much means i'm in charge of 90% of the store. The amount of shit i have to keep track of in ridiculous but the pay increase is nice for sure. I love what i do. Bikes are my life and working in the bike industry makes me happy, i just hope i can stay in it and make a decent living.
I've had a few flings with girls, nothing serious ever came out of it due to the girl becoming a crazy control freak or my ongoing fear of getting close to anyone after my ex destroyed me from the inside out. I want to be with someone. Me and single life have a love hate relationship. I like the freedom to go out and meet new people and explore different people but i hate coming home to my cold empty apartment, i miss having someone i love lay on my chest every night and to cuddle with in the morning. i miss saying I love you.
Something i wanna touch on regarding SG and all you lovely ladies out there. I understand that there are a lot of creepers out there and a lot of fucked up vulgar douche bags on the internet and on this site and i also understand that most of you have like 937493784 guys messaging you and what not but, my question is, what would be the proper course of action to actually making friends on here? i mean, isn't that part of the purpose of this site? to meet new people and share ideas and art and all that other junk? Now, don't get me wrong i'm not pissed or frustrated in any way but i come on here everyday and i read all your blogs and i get a small glimpse into your lives. Some more open and revealing than others. after a certain amount of time and reading blog after blog i start to genuinely care about some of you and whats going on in your life but some of you really steal my heart, and i'm not going to name names and be the creepy guy but those of you who have, who i genuinely want to talk to and become friends on more than a comment here, comment there on SG basis. I'm not a creeper, i'm not a stalker, i have a genuine heart and a level head on my shoulders but i hate being that guy that try's to message a girl or comment and at least make my existence known and feeling like that pathetic creeper guy. One girl on here and i'm not gonna put her name on here like a weirdo but she has really stolen my heart. She plays amazing guitar, she can sing. Every time she posts a video of her covering a song i melt inside. She's gorgeous and every time i read her blog she reminds me of my best friend that was violently taken from me 3 years ago and it kind of makes me sad to think that she'll be nothing more than a blog on a website. I hate thinking that i'm going to go through life not getting to know these people and not exploring every possible friendship with these amazing people who have been cool enough and brave enough to let us into their lives on here. Anyways, input.
ok, im done for tonight. here's some of my photography crap.
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minufa:
You're at the perfect age (assuming you don't date older women) where most of us are crazy cus we're trying to figure out who we truly are and where we fit in to the adult world. So either date older or wait it out and play the field for the next 5 years or so. It will make you a stronger, better person in the end anyway and you'll definetly know what you need and want in a partner.
kidelwood:
I think you KNOW what you want, you're just having a really tough time approaching it. Trust me, i'm there. No one wants to look like the desperate, hopeless romantic who actually KNOWS what it's like to love, and have it backfire into the definition of "creepy". It's an embarrassing word to be called, and it's used carelessly nowadays. I cannot give you the right answer, but I can be a set of ears if you want to chat about it all sometime. Granted, things have probably changed since you've written this, I do hope to get your insights and ideas... meeting new people is pretty damn cool.