i need to make a change.
but i don't know what specifically needs to change.
my job definitely. don't get me wrong, i love teaching preschool. it's amazing. but....i didn't graduate from college and then complete 2/3 of a masters to work for 9.25/hour. and before i sound too whiny, i am just thankful to have a job currently...and one that i enjoy most of the time...but i know i am capable of something more challenging i just need to pursue it.
anyway. so i know that change needs to happen. but i KNOW there's something more.
i'm completely in love with my husband. our relationship isn't perfect by any means...but it's amazing and fun and complex in a good way. so not that.
i just can't quite put my finger on what it is that has me feeling stagnant. but i do. maybe it's just being momentarily stuck in a rut. work, eat, have sex, sleep, shower, work. that is pretty much my day and the sex is sadly now just when i'm awake....stupid 9 or 10 hour days catching up with me.
maybe what i'm really upset about has nothing to do with routine or being stuck or bored...maybe it's just that i'm hating the fact that i'm an adult. and i don't want to be. it feels...lame.
or maybe i'm just tired......
but i don't know what specifically needs to change.
my job definitely. don't get me wrong, i love teaching preschool. it's amazing. but....i didn't graduate from college and then complete 2/3 of a masters to work for 9.25/hour. and before i sound too whiny, i am just thankful to have a job currently...and one that i enjoy most of the time...but i know i am capable of something more challenging i just need to pursue it.
anyway. so i know that change needs to happen. but i KNOW there's something more.
i'm completely in love with my husband. our relationship isn't perfect by any means...but it's amazing and fun and complex in a good way. so not that.
i just can't quite put my finger on what it is that has me feeling stagnant. but i do. maybe it's just being momentarily stuck in a rut. work, eat, have sex, sleep, shower, work. that is pretty much my day and the sex is sadly now just when i'm awake....stupid 9 or 10 hour days catching up with me.
maybe what i'm really upset about has nothing to do with routine or being stuck or bored...maybe it's just that i'm hating the fact that i'm an adult. and i don't want to be. it feels...lame.
or maybe i'm just tired......
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Just kidding
anyway,,, hope you find yourself
just google Des Moines
start with this
the usual way out of a rut for me is to ride it out by writing or coloring (cause i'm like a 5 year old) or something else creative but this time....i just feel too tired to even attempt anything.