alilland17

so my first blog post....and not surprisingly it's about love.

i've always wanted love. and i've always believed in the fairytale. the happily ever after. as a little girl i was wearing mommy's heels and lipstick and my little tiaras. i grew up...but that little girl never left me. there were times when i desperately wished she would. heartbreak after heartbreak i tried to force her out of me. i wanted so desperately to be cynical about love. it seemed so much easier that way.

after a 6.5 year abusive relationship...i took 3 years to myself. to care for that little girl...and the woman that she had allowed herself to become. it's a humbling lesson to let somebody strip you of dignity when they take off your clothing. and it's a hard thing to reclaim it.

but i did.

and even through my darkest days...that tiara wearing bitch was with me.

today...i'm 29 days away from a wedding i never thought i would have. and i have to say...i'm so happy that little girl didn't give up on me...cause i kept trying to ditch her.

the most awesome thing to me about this happy ending (hehehehe) is that it is so uniquely my own. this love is not a disney love for sure...but it's beautiful...and it's mine. and it's my own fairytale of sorts.

i hope you find yours.