Damn,I missed the first meeting of our unrecognized SGCT group today, cause I was at work.
well,at least I got to hear all about it and see welntaod's pix. I hear everybody's very cool in person.
Boy I've been having a weird experience at work. I work in a nursing home as a nurses aide, and I'm really lucky to have a good crew to work with. It's funny though, because I'm the youngest of them, and the average age is like 40, and I'm one of the few women there without children. Now I have sort of ababy face. People guess my age between 18 and 22. I'm 27.
I guess because I also tend to be very positive, and have a much higher point at which I actually start to show that I'm irritated (I think that means I'mpatient), well they all think I'm super innocent and naive.
It's weird, because I don't need for them to know my personal history or anything,and I certainly have nothing to prove in terms of non-innocence. It's just funny that that's their impression of me.
I mean, I don't plan for them ever to know.
They certainly don't need to know that I drank like a fucking maniac until I was 19 when I nearly died.
and I also don't talk about religion at work. There's no reason for them to know that I'm buddhist, and have been for ten years. Although that's some of the source of my patience.
It's funny I remember feeling so misunderstood as a teen, but now, I don't give a rats ass if people seem toknow the real me or not. People are too multifaceted. `You know one side of somebody, but you don't know a few others. We're like 20 sided dice. As long as we're not like those 4 sided dice that hurt so much when you accidentilly step on them.
anyway, I'm tired from lifting old people.
well,at least I got to hear all about it and see welntaod's pix. I hear everybody's very cool in person.
Boy I've been having a weird experience at work. I work in a nursing home as a nurses aide, and I'm really lucky to have a good crew to work with. It's funny though, because I'm the youngest of them, and the average age is like 40, and I'm one of the few women there without children. Now I have sort of ababy face. People guess my age between 18 and 22. I'm 27.
I guess because I also tend to be very positive, and have a much higher point at which I actually start to show that I'm irritated (I think that means I'mpatient), well they all think I'm super innocent and naive.
It's weird, because I don't need for them to know my personal history or anything,and I certainly have nothing to prove in terms of non-innocence. It's just funny that that's their impression of me.
I mean, I don't plan for them ever to know.
They certainly don't need to know that I drank like a fucking maniac until I was 19 when I nearly died.
and I also don't talk about religion at work. There's no reason for them to know that I'm buddhist, and have been for ten years. Although that's some of the source of my patience.
It's funny I remember feeling so misunderstood as a teen, but now, I don't give a rats ass if people seem toknow the real me or not. People are too multifaceted. `You know one side of somebody, but you don't know a few others. We're like 20 sided dice. As long as we're not like those 4 sided dice that hurt so much when you accidentilly step on them.
anyway, I'm tired from lifting old people.
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this might be the extreme goofiness talking, but i laughed out loud at reading "i'm tired from lifting the old people". not in a cruel way, but it just struck me funny. iamadork.
so sorry you missed the unofficial (albeit, dangerous) fun. sounds like everyone had a fun time. hopefully next time you'll be able to go bust some heads ... i mean, play games.
as for the accuracy of public opinion, yes, indeed. it sounds like you have achieved the proper balance in yr own perspective. after all, its a sort of power advantage to have them believe you are innocent, naive, and happy all of the time. do you find that this exempts you from alot of the popular pressure to engage in enforced sharing? i bet if you do speak, your words are considered more carefully. and yes, many sided dice indeed.
i understand where you are comging from. although i am the superficially freaky one everywhere i go, no one really knows the true tales of ... oh, so many things. its a mixed blessing when i feel lonely or misunderstood, but i am usually glad that i've not made myself vulnerable when the true colours of my compatriots emerge.
on a more positive note, i do feel quite comfortable doing so here. also, more on above when i send part II of the other reply.