alienprincess

I have blood blisters on my toes.
what else? my asthma was acting up. probably because I'm undertaking the cleaning/total reorganization of everything I own before I move- and well there's dustand such.
I like to pertend I don't have asthma, until it gets really bad and then I get really mad at people for `not realizing I have asthma and can't breathe. oops.

Man I also just need to be more positive in general. fear of not being able to breathe weaves it s way into my emotional landscape in ways that aren't exactly useful.

I guess I just need to relax when I'm huffing and puffing and not get freaked out on top of everything else.

I'm lucky in that my asthma only really bothers me a few times a year outside of excercising. excercising actually helps my asthma, you justwouldn'tknow it when I'm turning bright red.

I saw allsorts of cool massage toys I want today in a catalog- like the rubber bongers on sticks, and hot stone massage kits.

I got to do some capoeira moves in class today that Ilike- quixada-armada-armada- spinning around like flying. It's easy for me to get down on myself for what I can't do instead of enjoying the parts I can do.
okay that's enough words for now