well, the shit is about to hit the fan, school wise.
i have always had a MASSIVE block on doing homework, and still do.
i hate that i still have this ridiculous drama for every assignment even after so many fucking years. Even when school is something I want, and am intersted in, my previous school baggage makes sitting down and doing the assignments as much fun as.....um....insert masochistic image here. something self injurious and not enjoyable, picturesque or meaningful in any way.
it's like a nativity scene. maybe one where the figures are 3/4 size and the sheep are real sheep. except the shepards are saying 'can't you see i have better things to do?' and the kings are saying ' great. more busywork.'
even knowing i want to get rid of this drama, i'm still printing playbills and selling tickets.
or just pretending none of it exists until the problem becomes so big that i can't see anything else.
much easier to be here and now when there's no karma.
homework is my karmic plaque.
i have always had a MASSIVE block on doing homework, and still do.
i hate that i still have this ridiculous drama for every assignment even after so many fucking years. Even when school is something I want, and am intersted in, my previous school baggage makes sitting down and doing the assignments as much fun as.....um....insert masochistic image here. something self injurious and not enjoyable, picturesque or meaningful in any way.
it's like a nativity scene. maybe one where the figures are 3/4 size and the sheep are real sheep. except the shepards are saying 'can't you see i have better things to do?' and the kings are saying ' great. more busywork.'
even knowing i want to get rid of this drama, i'm still printing playbills and selling tickets.
or just pretending none of it exists until the problem becomes so big that i can't see anything else.
much easier to be here and now when there's no karma.
homework is my karmic plaque.
Umm... the cut is good, but is still a bit long for what I want to do... I'll figure it out. Thanks again
I would do about half an hour of work, then go play video games or watch a movie or whatever for awhile, then come back and do another half hour...and so on. It worked. Its best to take breaks, and if I cant do the things I enjoy I get pissy and irritable...so that system could be worth a try.