aliciakay

thanx for all the well wishes. I did get laid once. it did the trick. guess what i got today? Paperboy for my nintendo ds!!! sweet!
yesterday ryan stumbled upon a "diary entry" i wrote about 4 years ago. which was about 2 years into our marriage. it was about how i wonder what my life would be like if i were still with my ex....how the love i had with him is different than the love i have for my hubby. he didn't tell me straight away, but did later in the night. it kind of hurt his feelings. but, he tried to act like it didn't becuase he knows i felt worse when i found out about his indescretions. it was kind of nice to see him upset. not that i like to make him feel bad, but that it made him feel bad. you know what i mean. if he read it and didn't give a shit, we'd have a problem. it was just a silly rant. it meant nothing. of course i'm going to think about what might have been. as for the different type of loves. I think with my ex it was lust and hormones you know that great feeling when you first meet someone and how wonderful it is in the beginning. now that i'm married i don't really feel that. but, i wouldn't change anything. i love him very much. despite his faults. somehow i'm able to look past that?? i don't know how. but, it's working. and probably better than it did before. anyway it was kind of nice to remember that we love eachother.

eh, the weekend went by too fast.