aliceinmyhead

Goddamnit I got almost NO writing done today. I did get a ltter from my best friend though... I sat at the post office inthe parking lot in my car and read it and cried... and now Im forced to retreat back to bed and my NIN dvd cause fuck I cant do anything that requires thinking ....

NIN - Gave Up (I never really will)
Perfect little dream, the kind that always hurts the most
Forgot how it feels, well almost
No one to blame, always the same
Open my eyes, wake up in flames
It took you to make me realize
It took you to make me realize
It took you to make me realize
It took you to make me see the light
Smashed up my sanity
Smashed up my integrity
Smashed up what I believed in
Smashed up what's left of me
Smashed up my everything
Smashed up all that was true
Gonna smash myself to pieces
I don't know what else to do
Covered in hope and vaseline
Still cannot fix this broken machine
Watching the hole, it used to be mine
Just watching it burn in my steady, systematic decline
Of the trust I will betray
Give it to me, I throw it away
After everything I've done, I hate myself for what I've become
I tried
I gave up
Throw it away