i just posted a blog of all my edc pics last night u can see them here
i guess today im just writing to clear my head. I've been extremely unhappy lately, and although i usually push through it and ignore it until im better, im having a harder time then normal. I always thought at my age i would be working inside of my dads company, helping run it (with the economy going to shit he closed it down before he passed away). I guess im mostly unhappy at the job i have. well no...more then that. Ive struggled the last year since my dad passed to be happy, to get back on track and follow my dreams. i dont really even know what i want to do now, since i had always planned on taking over my dads company. i moved to vegas to finish school and make more money..so far im paying less for rent but making less also (which evens out since i paid and made more in cali). Part of that is because i only hostess here, but the issue with that is if i get a job on the strip ill work grave yard hours and little time off. i like where i am now because i can get time off whenever i want, but im still unsatisfied. i want more in my life, i want more for me, i deserve more. this last year ive become such an unmotivated person due to my depression from my dad passing unexpectedly and i still havent gotten out of it. sometimes it feels like an unreachable wall to climb. i guess being forced to grow up so quickly can take a toll on someone, especially taking care of my brother (which i never minded doing). and yet i still feel like i have a lot more to learn. i really just want to be satisfied. i want to get back into horseback riding (i did it for 15 years) it keeps me calm and lowers my stress. i also want to pick up kick boxing. my unmotivation has kept me from both of those things and ive had enough of it. i need to find a new job where my hard work is appreciated and noticed...hopefully i find what im looking for soon.
enough of my gripping. go check out these cute ladies
Me
Jaxy
Venom
Patton
Damsel
Kraven
also ill be seeing some of you at san diego comic con!!!
cant wait.
i guess today im just writing to clear my head. I've been extremely unhappy lately, and although i usually push through it and ignore it until im better, im having a harder time then normal. I always thought at my age i would be working inside of my dads company, helping run it (with the economy going to shit he closed it down before he passed away). I guess im mostly unhappy at the job i have. well no...more then that. Ive struggled the last year since my dad passed to be happy, to get back on track and follow my dreams. i dont really even know what i want to do now, since i had always planned on taking over my dads company. i moved to vegas to finish school and make more money..so far im paying less for rent but making less also (which evens out since i paid and made more in cali). Part of that is because i only hostess here, but the issue with that is if i get a job on the strip ill work grave yard hours and little time off. i like where i am now because i can get time off whenever i want, but im still unsatisfied. i want more in my life, i want more for me, i deserve more. this last year ive become such an unmotivated person due to my depression from my dad passing unexpectedly and i still havent gotten out of it. sometimes it feels like an unreachable wall to climb. i guess being forced to grow up so quickly can take a toll on someone, especially taking care of my brother (which i never minded doing). and yet i still feel like i have a lot more to learn. i really just want to be satisfied. i want to get back into horseback riding (i did it for 15 years) it keeps me calm and lowers my stress. i also want to pick up kick boxing. my unmotivation has kept me from both of those things and ive had enough of it. i need to find a new job where my hard work is appreciated and noticed...hopefully i find what im looking for soon.
enough of my gripping. go check out these cute ladies
Me
Jaxy
Venom
Patton
Damsel
Kraven
also ill be seeing some of you at san diego comic con!!!
cant wait.VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
It's tuff losing the people close to you. But I can tell you've got the smarts and most importantly the right attitude to make things better for yourself! (Honestly, i'm a scary judge of character :surreal
Keep the faith in yourself even if others don't, and take advantage of the amazing resource that is your nearest and dearest, we often forget how much they can help (even in little ways).
Hang tuff kiddo' you'll bounce back!
Now go find a horse to ride and some arsehole to beat the shit out of!!
(If you can do both at the same time and film it i'll give you $500