Disclaimer:
This is going to be one of those semi-introspective things that I'm typing because I can, not because you might want to read it. It's also going to be badly written, because it's 3:15, and I'm not in the mood for eloquence.
But read it anyway.
I've been thinking about love in general, and romantic love in specific.
I was looking at my SG friends list, and it occurred to me that I love, in that romantic, could easily spend a large chunk of my life with you kind of way, at least 2 of the people on that list. I have what I'd call strong emotional ties and physical attraction two at least 2 more of them.
And my girlfriend, who I also love, isn't even on the list.
So that's 3+ definitely loves, 2+ easily could loves.
There's also 1 "really want to, emotions be damned", but lust is something I've come to terms with just being something I deal with in larger amounts than most.
I can't decide whether it's unusual to feel the way I do about multiple people, or whether I'm just being more honest about how I feel than is the norm.
I've also been thinking about types of love.
It's certainly possibly to fall in love with someone you're not overwhelmed by through repeated contact and lots of sex. It seems to produce a kind of placid, gentle love - the kind that can make you whisper "I love you" across a pillow, but not the kind of thing that would make you take truly ridiculous risks for another second with your loved one.
It's certainly possibly to become friends with someone, and then just keep growing closer to them, with physical intimacy coming later. I seem to have a predilection for this, and the people it happened with will, I hope, still be as close in twenty years as they are now (especially if we get to talk more often. You know who you are).
I feel like there's something missing from the two types I've written about above. I'm sure there should be someone, somewhere, with whom things just click. Where I can't tell the difference between which part of our relationship is lust, love or friendship. Every know and then I've glimpsed that intense, burning kind of connection, and wondered if there's a way to take it and make it last a whole relationship, or a whole lifetime.
I really hope so.
This is going to be one of those semi-introspective things that I'm typing because I can, not because you might want to read it. It's also going to be badly written, because it's 3:15, and I'm not in the mood for eloquence.
But read it anyway.
I've been thinking about love in general, and romantic love in specific.
I was looking at my SG friends list, and it occurred to me that I love, in that romantic, could easily spend a large chunk of my life with you kind of way, at least 2 of the people on that list. I have what I'd call strong emotional ties and physical attraction two at least 2 more of them.
And my girlfriend, who I also love, isn't even on the list.
So that's 3+ definitely loves, 2+ easily could loves.
There's also 1 "really want to, emotions be damned", but lust is something I've come to terms with just being something I deal with in larger amounts than most.
I can't decide whether it's unusual to feel the way I do about multiple people, or whether I'm just being more honest about how I feel than is the norm.
I've also been thinking about types of love.
It's certainly possibly to fall in love with someone you're not overwhelmed by through repeated contact and lots of sex. It seems to produce a kind of placid, gentle love - the kind that can make you whisper "I love you" across a pillow, but not the kind of thing that would make you take truly ridiculous risks for another second with your loved one.
It's certainly possibly to become friends with someone, and then just keep growing closer to them, with physical intimacy coming later. I seem to have a predilection for this, and the people it happened with will, I hope, still be as close in twenty years as they are now (especially if we get to talk more often. You know who you are).
I feel like there's something missing from the two types I've written about above. I'm sure there should be someone, somewhere, with whom things just click. Where I can't tell the difference between which part of our relationship is lust, love or friendship. Every know and then I've glimpsed that intense, burning kind of connection, and wondered if there's a way to take it and make it last a whole relationship, or a whole lifetime.
I really hope so.