Just when I thought I was past the whole "being angry at my ex" thing, I find another streak of vicious contrariness I thought I'd weeded out and disposed of.
The two of us are the only people in our social circle who go to fetish nights because we're actually into the whole bdsm/fetish thing, as opposed to the dance scene, and we'd both been looking forward to the Rubber Ball since before we broke up at the end of June.
Somehow she managed to double book the Friday, so unless she can sell her ticket for the Rocky Horror Show, we're not doing the TG. This is not a major thing, so why did I immediately get angry and tell her I didn't want to go to the Rubber Ball with her?
It's like spending more than a few hours in my own company turns me back into the bad tempered recluse which was the main reason we broke up. I think she's similar, but spending so much time with her friends has let her get over the whole thing a lot better than me being stuck in Reading and not knowing anyone.
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The two of us are the only people in our social circle who go to fetish nights because we're actually into the whole bdsm/fetish thing, as opposed to the dance scene, and we'd both been looking forward to the Rubber Ball since before we broke up at the end of June.
Somehow she managed to double book the Friday, so unless she can sell her ticket for the Rocky Horror Show, we're not doing the TG. This is not a major thing, so why did I immediately get angry and tell her I didn't want to go to the Rubber Ball with her?
It's like spending more than a few hours in my own company turns me back into the bad tempered recluse which was the main reason we broke up. I think she's similar, but spending so much time with her friends has let her get over the whole thing a lot better than me being stuck in Reading and not knowing anyone.
This emo-powered rant brought to you by digital hardcore legends The Shizit - Gak Bitch.
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I know this is going to sound really gay and you're going to tell me to fuck off, but what I learned after the whole Tam thing is that, if you can't be happy in your own company, you can't be happy in anyone else's. And it's fucking hard work. Actually, I only leanred it after you (rightfully) told me to fuck off and stop being so clingy).
I know she was upset at being with you again on Saturday. Perhaps you guys need a bit more time apart before hanging out again?
I'm going to be going to Rocky Horror with some of my friends, but will try to come to TG if I have the money, I promise. It's a bit tough at the moment, though, as the boi is definitely going to Uni now, so money's tight. *gulp*