one of my best friends is gone
he was like the big brother i never had. jon called me tonight, sobbing. telling me to sit down because he had something terrible to tell me. i fell to the floor, and i couldnt breathe. i still cant breathe. i've been crying for 6 hours. my eyes are almost swollen shut.
how the fuck does a 30 year old man die in his sleep? what the fuck? the fucking guy was one of the most amazing people i've ever known. he was so caring, and giving, and generous. he loved his friends and his family so much.
when my aunt died, he was one of the first people i saw. i went over to ben and jonny's parent's house. we got drunk at 1 in the afternoon. tom came over with an ice cream cake that said "yeah kate!" on it. he always had a way of rationalizing things and making me feel better, even when i was as low as i could be.
my family is broken. everything is in shambles. i dont know what the fuck is going to happen. i miss him already. and im worried about my friends. i dont know what to do with myself right now.

he was like the big brother i never had. jon called me tonight, sobbing. telling me to sit down because he had something terrible to tell me. i fell to the floor, and i couldnt breathe. i still cant breathe. i've been crying for 6 hours. my eyes are almost swollen shut.
how the fuck does a 30 year old man die in his sleep? what the fuck? the fucking guy was one of the most amazing people i've ever known. he was so caring, and giving, and generous. he loved his friends and his family so much.
when my aunt died, he was one of the first people i saw. i went over to ben and jonny's parent's house. we got drunk at 1 in the afternoon. tom came over with an ice cream cake that said "yeah kate!" on it. he always had a way of rationalizing things and making me feel better, even when i was as low as i could be.
my family is broken. everything is in shambles. i dont know what the fuck is going to happen. i miss him already. and im worried about my friends. i dont know what to do with myself right now.
