alcoholiv

today has been full of ups and downs. i found out that i definately got the apartment, which i'm incredibly happy about. i sign the lease on friday.

i had a lot of time to think about things while i was packing and cleaning today. i looked at some pictures that very nearly made me throw up. they brought up some emotions that were dead and gone for a while, and it was rather unexpected. i talked to someone today i hadnt in a while, and it made me feel better about some things. got some new music which was really exciting.

and i dont care what anyone ever has to say about this tattoo or what it says. the meaning behind the thing goes way deeper then i'll probably ever explain to anyone.


and then i listened to this album today for the first time in a while, and it reminded me about how much this song rings true of my life sometimes.




Hello what the hell am I doin' here
That's a really nice suit
This is a really comfortable chair
See I don't know if you can help me or not
Cause I don't feel sick
But the pains in my head have almost put me
Underground
I don't really care if I'm healthy or not
Just clean my head up doc
I'll give you anything you want
See I don't know why I don't fall in love
Well maybe I know why and maybe you could make it stop
Then we'll cut it up and bury it and leave it
Underground
And I'll take to wishing and fall under
Sleeping safe and sound
Just give me medicine prescribe me anything
Just knock me out and walk me through the door
I have no desire to see through my own eyes anymore
Hello what the hell are you doing here
You made a really strange face
This is a really uncomfortable air
I see I'm boring you, maybe I bore myself too
That's why I need help, I'm cleaning blood off dusty shelves
I been cut up in this room so many times it might take days
And those stress cracks in the wood
How nicely the soak up the stains
Been telling myself these jokes for so long well so long
I'm a has been who is heckled on the stage