It's distressing how much sense this makes.
I've never gone into detail about "The Ghost," have I. Not really. This comes pretty close, though. Not 100%, but enough of it rings true to scare me. It's funny.... I've known her since high school, and never found myself particularly interested in her then. The first time I saw her after that was working in what would be my current job (grocery retail, ick) when she came in on her way home from her job, wearing the uniform of our competition (something I found incredibly cool). We'd talk from time to time, discussed love once (she was getting married soon, I was looking into the move out to Oregon for similar reasons), and then a couple of years later had our relationships fall apart at about the same time. She even said, at one point, that we should catch a movie or something sometime, and I went and found whatever excuse I could not to call her and set things up. I might go into rebound mode, she might just mean it as a friendly thing since she was trying to work things out with her husband, I didn't trust my instincts because of how the prior relationship ended and so on. Eight years ago! Maybe nine by now. I remember Titanic was out, that's my time anchor. (checks) Holy shit, ten years.
I've been thinking, as I do every year, of trying to get her attention through one of those newspaper "love lines" special editions they do on Valentine's day. Perhaps this is an excuse not to, once again?
The last time I saw here, I journaled about here. To wit: "So what does it mean when a woman who you haven't seen comes into your workplace, manages to work her singlehood into the conversation, and only misremembers your degree program slightly?
"
But now I have an explaination, and true to form, I can take it as evidence that it's all an illusion.
I'm just going to listen to a bunch of Rod Stewart now, and maybe drink something.
I've never gone into detail about "The Ghost," have I. Not really. This comes pretty close, though. Not 100%, but enough of it rings true to scare me. It's funny.... I've known her since high school, and never found myself particularly interested in her then. The first time I saw her after that was working in what would be my current job (grocery retail, ick) when she came in on her way home from her job, wearing the uniform of our competition (something I found incredibly cool). We'd talk from time to time, discussed love once (she was getting married soon, I was looking into the move out to Oregon for similar reasons), and then a couple of years later had our relationships fall apart at about the same time. She even said, at one point, that we should catch a movie or something sometime, and I went and found whatever excuse I could not to call her and set things up. I might go into rebound mode, she might just mean it as a friendly thing since she was trying to work things out with her husband, I didn't trust my instincts because of how the prior relationship ended and so on. Eight years ago! Maybe nine by now. I remember Titanic was out, that's my time anchor. (checks) Holy shit, ten years.
I've been thinking, as I do every year, of trying to get her attention through one of those newspaper "love lines" special editions they do on Valentine's day. Perhaps this is an excuse not to, once again?
The last time I saw here, I journaled about here. To wit: "So what does it mean when a woman who you haven't seen comes into your workplace, manages to work her singlehood into the conversation, and only misremembers your degree program slightly?
"
But now I have an explaination, and true to form, I can take it as evidence that it's all an illusion.
I'm just going to listen to a bunch of Rod Stewart now, and maybe drink something.