So I've wrote nothing in a while.
What has happened? Well friends have returned, friends are disappearing and right now I have an ear infection/the flu, but despite that I'm still smiling and enjoying life. Wait, what? That doesn't seem right?
Well my best friend salliss returned to England in January & I couldn't be more pleased with that. She definitely brightened up the start of 2012 for me. Everyone has close friends and best friends, and acquittance's and colleges, but everyone must also have that one friend who is your complete and utter other half, the one friend you'd marry and be with for life. The rock that keeps you grounded and no matter what the subject you can talk to about absolutely anything. Well, she is that to me, and the past year without her was difficult and down right horrendous, and it showed me how much some people really don't give a shit and how precious she really is to me.
So there's my love for Salliss right there on a plate for all to see.
Another friend is disappearing due to the ever growing distance between us, and I have no idea where it has come from, it is nothing to do with Salliss, it was very present before she returned. I mean this friend even dared to break the ever sacred girl code by going after a guy I had hooked up with and she knew full well I liked, a lot. I even gossiped with her about how I felt about him. That was awful, I never thought I could feel that kind of sneakiness from her, I had to witness it in front of me while at work with them both. Urgh, it was sickening. But for some reason it just seems she has something stuck up her arse and is going the wrong way about removing it. She's stepping on every ones toes at work, just to get ahead. And finally, I am not the only one who has noticed it any more. She's very much a lover of other girls boyfriends. She was the other woman in a couples five year relationship for two years of it, and now it appears she's starting in on someone else's relationship. Simply to forward herself in her job. Her and I are in the same position at work, I'm newer to the role yes, but man, she sure makes me feel like I'm worth nothing. And you see she is that 'shy' innocent girl that every guy adores and every girl can see straight through. It's horroble with her at the moment, I feel every time she speaks to me it's so forced. This is the only place I can write down how it makes me feel, as she follows my Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, Instagram so I can't express it anywhere.
But really what can I do with a friend who was a best friend, who now appears to hate me, maybe due to me liking a guy that she then developed feelings for (btw, said guy is no longer in the picture for me, so for me it's not a problem any more) or is it because I got promoted to her level at work and she didn't like that she couldn't treat me like shit. I dunno.
All this stuff just makes me even more thankful to have Salliss in my life again.
So completely off subject, Arctic Monkeys released a new song today called R U Mine? I haven't stopped listening to it, have a listen, see what you think.
My birthday was last month, despite arranging it two months in advance for a triple birthday celebration as there were three of us from work with birthdays in February around the same time, me on the 8th, Hannah (the evil friend who hates me ) on the 9th and Gary on the 12th, a lot of people never bothered to show up, including Hannah, but those who did made it an amazing evening, including Sal <3 My ex made an appearance, shocking that, on my birthday and all and in the one place he knows I would go, but he soon buggered off after he realised no one was giving him any attention. I also got asked out at the end of the night by an old work buddy, he no longer works with me but I invited him out, had no idea he has liked me for so long, I have also liked him but kind of forgot about it all as last I knew he had a girlfriend, so he got put into the friend box. But that's going pretty well, we've gone on two dates, should have been four, but alas, my immune system is failing and I've gone and got sick. But apart from the sickness getting in the way, it's going well.
So that's a snippet and a big long bitch moan of my January-February
What has happened? Well friends have returned, friends are disappearing and right now I have an ear infection/the flu, but despite that I'm still smiling and enjoying life. Wait, what? That doesn't seem right?
Well my best friend salliss returned to England in January & I couldn't be more pleased with that. She definitely brightened up the start of 2012 for me. Everyone has close friends and best friends, and acquittance's and colleges, but everyone must also have that one friend who is your complete and utter other half, the one friend you'd marry and be with for life. The rock that keeps you grounded and no matter what the subject you can talk to about absolutely anything. Well, she is that to me, and the past year without her was difficult and down right horrendous, and it showed me how much some people really don't give a shit and how precious she really is to me.
So there's my love for Salliss right there on a plate for all to see.
Another friend is disappearing due to the ever growing distance between us, and I have no idea where it has come from, it is nothing to do with Salliss, it was very present before she returned. I mean this friend even dared to break the ever sacred girl code by going after a guy I had hooked up with and she knew full well I liked, a lot. I even gossiped with her about how I felt about him. That was awful, I never thought I could feel that kind of sneakiness from her, I had to witness it in front of me while at work with them both. Urgh, it was sickening. But for some reason it just seems she has something stuck up her arse and is going the wrong way about removing it. She's stepping on every ones toes at work, just to get ahead. And finally, I am not the only one who has noticed it any more. She's very much a lover of other girls boyfriends. She was the other woman in a couples five year relationship for two years of it, and now it appears she's starting in on someone else's relationship. Simply to forward herself in her job. Her and I are in the same position at work, I'm newer to the role yes, but man, she sure makes me feel like I'm worth nothing. And you see she is that 'shy' innocent girl that every guy adores and every girl can see straight through. It's horroble with her at the moment, I feel every time she speaks to me it's so forced. This is the only place I can write down how it makes me feel, as she follows my Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, Instagram so I can't express it anywhere.
But really what can I do with a friend who was a best friend, who now appears to hate me, maybe due to me liking a guy that she then developed feelings for (btw, said guy is no longer in the picture for me, so for me it's not a problem any more) or is it because I got promoted to her level at work and she didn't like that she couldn't treat me like shit. I dunno.
All this stuff just makes me even more thankful to have Salliss in my life again.
So completely off subject, Arctic Monkeys released a new song today called R U Mine? I haven't stopped listening to it, have a listen, see what you think.
My birthday was last month, despite arranging it two months in advance for a triple birthday celebration as there were three of us from work with birthdays in February around the same time, me on the 8th, Hannah (the evil friend who hates me ) on the 9th and Gary on the 12th, a lot of people never bothered to show up, including Hannah, but those who did made it an amazing evening, including Sal <3 My ex made an appearance, shocking that, on my birthday and all and in the one place he knows I would go, but he soon buggered off after he realised no one was giving him any attention. I also got asked out at the end of the night by an old work buddy, he no longer works with me but I invited him out, had no idea he has liked me for so long, I have also liked him but kind of forgot about it all as last I knew he had a girlfriend, so he got put into the friend box. But that's going pretty well, we've gone on two dates, should have been four, but alas, my immune system is failing and I've gone and got sick. But apart from the sickness getting in the way, it's going well.
So that's a snippet and a big long bitch moan of my January-February
anti_:
It was great to finally meet you. Arizona's loss is your gain, enjoy!