Ok, so wow... it's been a while...
Been busy, doing a lot of nothing it seems. I'm not quite sure how that works. Actually I think I have just been kind of depressed, and drinking a little too much lately. But it hasn't been alone. I am kind of a homebody in the winter. Cold and lack of daylight get me down, and I don't get out much. But I seem to be having a lot of visitors lately. Even from halfway across the country. This weekend, my youngest son's dad was in town from Ft. Bragg, NC. That was kind of strange. He hasn't said anything beyond the requirements of trading the boy in about two years... so for him to just drop by and hang out for a few hours like we had always been the best of friends makes me think he had some sort of near-death experience or something. I just don't get it! Boys are strange... and yes guys, I know... women are crazy! We do it on purpose, so you don't get bored!
On the flip side of life...
I have learned recently that when it comes to kids... be careful what you ask for. I was tired of the boys messing up the livingroom, always being on my computer, and being forced to watch Nickelodeon every day. So for Christmas, we redid their room, complete with entertainment center, new dvd/vcr, larger tv, switch to hook up ALL their game systems, new computer and desk... the whole nine yards! Now I never see them anymore. Even my four year old, who used to be crammed up my @#**& all day, now only comes to me when he's hungry. Am I a bad mom if I let him play in his own room all day? Am I crazy to want a little space, then be confused, worried and depressed when I get it??? What the hell happens to women when they give birth, that makes us automatically lose our mind???
Is it just me, or does every mommy depend on their kids being ridiculously underfoot to function?? Am I the only mom who has know clue what to do with herself when she isn't being driven insane by people who aren't big enough to get on the big rollercoaster?
Wow, Alannah needs some adult time... out in public. I think I'll do that later.
Been busy, doing a lot of nothing it seems. I'm not quite sure how that works. Actually I think I have just been kind of depressed, and drinking a little too much lately. But it hasn't been alone. I am kind of a homebody in the winter. Cold and lack of daylight get me down, and I don't get out much. But I seem to be having a lot of visitors lately. Even from halfway across the country. This weekend, my youngest son's dad was in town from Ft. Bragg, NC. That was kind of strange. He hasn't said anything beyond the requirements of trading the boy in about two years... so for him to just drop by and hang out for a few hours like we had always been the best of friends makes me think he had some sort of near-death experience or something. I just don't get it! Boys are strange... and yes guys, I know... women are crazy! We do it on purpose, so you don't get bored!
On the flip side of life...
I have learned recently that when it comes to kids... be careful what you ask for. I was tired of the boys messing up the livingroom, always being on my computer, and being forced to watch Nickelodeon every day. So for Christmas, we redid their room, complete with entertainment center, new dvd/vcr, larger tv, switch to hook up ALL their game systems, new computer and desk... the whole nine yards! Now I never see them anymore. Even my four year old, who used to be crammed up my @#**& all day, now only comes to me when he's hungry. Am I a bad mom if I let him play in his own room all day? Am I crazy to want a little space, then be confused, worried and depressed when I get it??? What the hell happens to women when they give birth, that makes us automatically lose our mind???
Is it just me, or does every mommy depend on their kids being ridiculously underfoot to function?? Am I the only mom who has know clue what to do with herself when she isn't being driven insane by people who aren't big enough to get on the big rollercoaster?
Wow, Alannah needs some adult time... out in public. I think I'll do that later.
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Daylight savings is next weekend, that is usually my cue to stop hibernating...