All I want to do is sleep. All I want to do is sleep. Jarrod buy me a bigger bed before I have to hurt you. Beware of the lip balm. I think that was supposed to be funny but how would I know I only sleep two hours. Buy me a milkshake and I'll forgive you. I HOPE YOU GET GRAVEYARD SHIFT!!! Cause I...
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I GOT BIRTHDAY CAKE!!! And I didn't have to make it myself, so its sweet and looks pretty. Thanks sweetie 
Which also adds to my dismay of having absolutely nothing to wear and more temper tantrums. Yep, I packed away all my clothes today. I am left with weird random kindof fitting clothes. Actually I should get going to sew some pants. It's fucking cold...
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Which also adds to my dismay of having absolutely nothing to wear and more temper tantrums. Yep, I packed away all my clothes today. I am left with weird random kindof fitting clothes. Actually I should get going to sew some pants. It's fucking cold...
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dementia_____:
OK.
Well.
Honestly you are the only other person that I care about as much as myself. And yes obviously it is out of habit and more a far stretch even...
I DO care about you. I care about how you feel, what goes on in your life, how you are feeling. But how am I supposed to really express that when you make no effort to contact me. I can only do somuch. Both of us have things going on in our lives and you may say yours is more important, but I say they are both weighted equal in very different ways. No, I cant understand whats its like to have a marriage or a husband or a baby...Im not there at all. and once, I tried to understand and you knocked me aside. So, what can I do?
Ive let you know over and over..If there is anything I can do...ask me. Ill do it. Ill be there.
It isnt that I dont care..that is far from the truth. But you know how I work..youve known me almost 7 years...we operate differently. Now I guess its just a matter if you want that still. If you want me to be there, to offer myself, or if youd rather extinguish all but a few of your relations with people and start over by yourself in your new world thats approaching. Honestly it is up to you. Ive sat by when you didnt speak to me for months and months, but Id rather know 100% where you are, because those months were torture and NOW the situation is entirely different.
I dont know how you are feeling because you dont tell me. And when you you a little..you make me feel below you be suggesting I am irrelivent and in the way...really.
Ack. So. Well. thats all for now I guess. So much is going on right now.
I know that you will probably take these words and think they are meaningless and stupid and such. But I dont care really. Ive said them. I mean them.Take them how you will. At this point Im totally numb to most anything and I cant really function efficiently in this world. This would just be the "creme" of sorts. Nothing would surprise me..It seems that no matter what I say here or any other time..you wont like what I have to say. You never do. Youve never liked anything Ive ever done or said. any idea Ive brought forth any mattter Ive brought up, and feelings Ive opened(which are true..I never lie) youve never liked/agreed with. I dont expect this to be any different. But this isnt about me. It is about you. and so you know where I stand.
I love you.
xo, A
Well.
Honestly you are the only other person that I care about as much as myself. And yes obviously it is out of habit and more a far stretch even...
I DO care about you. I care about how you feel, what goes on in your life, how you are feeling. But how am I supposed to really express that when you make no effort to contact me. I can only do somuch. Both of us have things going on in our lives and you may say yours is more important, but I say they are both weighted equal in very different ways. No, I cant understand whats its like to have a marriage or a husband or a baby...Im not there at all. and once, I tried to understand and you knocked me aside. So, what can I do?
Ive let you know over and over..If there is anything I can do...ask me. Ill do it. Ill be there.
It isnt that I dont care..that is far from the truth. But you know how I work..youve known me almost 7 years...we operate differently. Now I guess its just a matter if you want that still. If you want me to be there, to offer myself, or if youd rather extinguish all but a few of your relations with people and start over by yourself in your new world thats approaching. Honestly it is up to you. Ive sat by when you didnt speak to me for months and months, but Id rather know 100% where you are, because those months were torture and NOW the situation is entirely different.
I dont know how you are feeling because you dont tell me. And when you you a little..you make me feel below you be suggesting I am irrelivent and in the way...really.
Ack. So. Well. thats all for now I guess. So much is going on right now.
I know that you will probably take these words and think they are meaningless and stupid and such. But I dont care really. Ive said them. I mean them.Take them how you will. At this point Im totally numb to most anything and I cant really function efficiently in this world. This would just be the "creme" of sorts. Nothing would surprise me..It seems that no matter what I say here or any other time..you wont like what I have to say. You never do. Youve never liked anything Ive ever done or said. any idea Ive brought forth any mattter Ive brought up, and feelings Ive opened(which are true..I never lie) youve never liked/agreed with. I dont expect this to be any different. But this isnt about me. It is about you. and so you know where I stand.
I love you.
xo, A
bombshellbetty:
Yay! Thanks for giving my ex a piece of your mind. You rock! And happy happy (late) birthday!
I just moved, too, and it took me two days of solid packing to be done. Ugh. I hate packing like that. Hope it all stays easy for you!
I just moved, too, and it took me two days of solid packing to be done. Ugh. I hate packing like that. Hope it all stays easy for you!
I have a new video game 
yah no social life and no feeling in my legs. but its ok, I am not intrested in the outside world, its just the same old bullshit over and over for years and years. So I realized after sleeping only 3 hrs in 2 days (not related to new game) that I choose who my friends are and aren't....
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yah no social life and no feeling in my legs. but its ok, I am not intrested in the outside world, its just the same old bullshit over and over for years and years. So I realized after sleeping only 3 hrs in 2 days (not related to new game) that I choose who my friends are and aren't.... Read More
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dementia_____:
eating and/or using sponges(real ones) is mean.
someone tried to buy them once and i started to kick them, as i often do...yeah. but i guess this is not for real. but still. if you wanna loofah or sponge yourself, buy faux.
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yeah. that is all. oh and r.i.p the diner. im sad. i liked all the neato pictures.
someone tried to buy them once and i started to kick them, as i often do...yeah. but i guess this is not for real. but still. if you wanna loofah or sponge yourself, buy faux.
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yeah. that is all. oh and r.i.p the diner. im sad. i liked all the neato pictures.
dementia_____:
Real. Always. But sometimes wayward and dried up. Like now.
let me start with 
yep, the joys of motherhood. i puked on my feet yesterday, i am really starting to get tired of this. yuck, I can't even think of that pukey incident. I just wish my bronchitis would finally clear up. It's been a month now. I am also really starting to hate my profile pic. It's just ugly. I enrolled in school this...
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yep, the joys of motherhood. i puked on my feet yesterday, i am really starting to get tired of this. yuck, I can't even think of that pukey incident. I just wish my bronchitis would finally clear up. It's been a month now. I am also really starting to hate my profile pic. It's just ugly. I enrolled in school this... Read More
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dementia_____:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVLIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
looky..i finally got an account!
ill see you tommorow!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVLIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
looky..i finally got an account!
ill see you tommorow!!!!!
delilah_banks:
Hey, just wanted to say Happy Birthday!
Its all windy and rainy, but kindof sunny. I like the rain but my new haircolor doesn't. That's my new excuse for not going out, yep. I started on those happy pills again, I am not sure whats worse getting on them or getting off. I AM SO FUCKING TIRED!!!!!! Which is okay, I guess, I've had some nasty insomina especially with my fucking cough....
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ophelia:
Awww! Your baby sounds adorable! How far along are you?
I still have nightmares all the time, except that they're no longer all about monsters and boogeymen, but everyone I love telling me that they hate me.
I still have nightmares all the time, except that they're no longer all about monsters and boogeymen, but everyone I love telling me that they hate me.
tiamat:
OMG. me and Ophelia are sitting beside each other and i was just about to ask you the same question. then she yelled at me 
i despise when my hair color leaks. i decided to quit the red and do only permanent for now since i lack patience.
i despise when my hair color leaks. i decided to quit the red and do only permanent for now since i lack patience.
Its all windy and rainy, but kindof sunny. I like the rain but my new haircolor doesn't. That's my new excuse for not going out, yep. I started on those happy pills again, I am not sure whats worse getting on them or getting off. I AM SO FUCKING TIRED!!!!!! Which is okay, I guess, I've had some nasty insomina especially with my fucking cough....
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I have nothing to say, nothing very intresting. I keep waiting for someone to post angry messages at me but no one ever does, perhaps I should try pissing someone off to achieve this. I really really really want a haircut, I think I will have it cut in the morning by me for free, or maybe not for free. I bought new pants with...
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tygertyger:
Hey, I hope you feel better soon.
And I'd seriously question EvildeSuck's right to call anyone an idiot - but that's just me. There's good people on here, and if you want them mad at you, well, I'm sure some will oblige.
And I'd seriously question EvildeSuck's right to call anyone an idiot - but that's just me. There's good people on here, and if you want them mad at you, well, I'm sure some will oblige.
radiobastet:
You're pregnant?!?!?! Congratulations!! Where the hell have I been...
So why do you want people to post angry messages?? I don't get it. The old "anger is better than nothing" deal? Believe me, it isn't.
Man - I hope they get the bugs worked out of this new site design; typing over the smilies and the "insert" text is weirding me out!!
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So why do you want people to post angry messages?? I don't get it. The old "anger is better than nothing" deal? Believe me, it isn't.
Man - I hope they get the bugs worked out of this new site design; typing over the smilies and the "insert" text is weirding me out!!
[Edited on Oct 08, 2003 7:59AM]
I am very tired, I am watching dumb late night talky shows, I shoulda done that tai chi, I smell like bleach, I wish my hair was bleached, I should sleep, I changed my name, I hope my name doesn't mean donkey pee, I am not satisified with the pictures I posted, I wish I could find my watercolours, I still want new shoes, I...
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mrsmead:
Random Chicken!!!!!
Random Chicken!!!!!
mattthegoon:
random blank space :
I think I am gonna go sleep with my kittie in the bathtub. I am too paranoid for the world and all it's reality.
I am trying to orchestrate a move to Nanaimo. It's not so easy my boy's company is stupid and I hate them. I am not sure if I should really move there but I want to work at the Thrift Store...
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I am trying to orchestrate a move to Nanaimo. It's not so easy my boy's company is stupid and I hate them. I am not sure if I should really move there but I want to work at the Thrift Store...
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k, so that stupid secret that I am too depressed to share, well mind you everyone who knows is screaming it to every fucking person they know, is really all that important I guess. I suppose I am so depressed because that photo set I never found the time for won't be happening for quite awhile. And I need to live now, I'll die tomorrow.... Read More
mmm, ever since I've come home my cats won't leave me alone, like I smell like cat nip. I probably do, sleeping in my neighbours garden with all the slugs and cow dodoo.
And I have been playing with my chinese painting thingy, I don't like it very much. Maybe I'd feel better about it if I painted dead things. Or if I pretended the...
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And I have been playing with my chinese painting thingy, I don't like it very much. Maybe I'd feel better about it if I painted dead things. Or if I pretended the...
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tygertyger:
Wow, you're strange. I like it.
So your secret is smaller than a breadbox? Is it... a fish?
So your secret is smaller than a breadbox? Is it... a fish?
mattthegoon:
what a refreshingly interesting post.
hihihihi
I've been gone for so long. I've been in good ol' Port Alberni. Which basically means sickening heat and lots of thrift store shopping. Nothing like nice moderately cool Victoria.
O, but I did get to work at my favourite thrift store. Which is very good, because I am no longer a Donut General.
And those damn Visa people won't leave me alone.
Hmm,...
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I've been gone for so long. I've been in good ol' Port Alberni. Which basically means sickening heat and lots of thrift store shopping. Nothing like nice moderately cool Victoria.
O, but I did get to work at my favourite thrift store. Which is very good, because I am no longer a Donut General.
And those damn Visa people won't leave me alone.
Hmm,...
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tygertyger:
OK, I recognize your name from around here, and you live near all the lovely Victoria SGs I was lucky enough to meet on my trip, but you've apparently Friended me, and I'm puzzled and curious as to why.
Can I guess at the secret? Will you give me a hint?
EDIT: "hint." With an "i." Yeah. Oh, btw, I saw the Kingpins when they came through town recently. Skankin' good show.
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Can I guess at the secret? Will you give me a hint?
EDIT: "hint." With an "i." Yeah. Oh, btw, I saw the Kingpins when they came through town recently. Skankin' good show.
[Edited on Aug 29, 2003]
razorgrin:
I like secrets.
And really, you have met me, sort of. You've met Fjola, right?
Imagine Fjola but slightly more annoying and slightly less cute, but still as neurotic and you have me.
well..
babies are kinda like weasles..
kinda.
a bit more noisy
but they get into just as much trouble..
when they become mobile
they are less hairy though..
and umm..smell better..
well..
sometimes.
(babies, not the weasles)
I'm going to school to deliver babies btw
midwife.
yup.
Hope you're getting some sleep..