I just wanted to write a really quick post for all of you who experience those Christmas blues, because I know I do. For some reason, Christmas causes me a lot of anxiety and heightened feelings of depression, and I think this is due to the holidays being a time for people to reflect.
I don’t have a bad family life, but it definitely makes me think back to Christmas as a kid, when my family and I were so close, and little worried us. I feel like this all changed when my Pop passed away, as we’d spend every Christmas at his house, surrounded by love and laughter. It makes me think of spending Christmas around my Grandma, and my cousin, who also passed away. My mum and my Aunt would always go Christmas shopping together, and buy me and my cousin the same present as we were similar in age, and she’d always open hers first, so my present would no longer be a surprise.
I used to hate it, but now I’d give anything to watch her open her present first.
It’s hard for me to look at really close families during Christmas, especially ones where the father is present and enjoying spending time with his family, as my father would always be away for work during Christmas and birthdays as a kid.
I just want to let anyone else that feels this way know that they are not alone <3
