It’s hard not to constantly feel like I’ve emotionally shut down.
I feel as if I’ve reached a point in my relationships where I just have nothing left to give. I’ve been drained of showing emotion. I start thinking that I like someone but then I realise that I don’t care at all, I don’t care if they feel the same way, I don’t care if they leave and never speak to me again. I don’t know if it’s some sort of defence mechanism because of being so hurt in previous situations?
It feels as if my body has prevented me from getting emotionally attached to people in fear of them hurting me.
I’m enjoying single life, I really am, and I don’t even know If I want anyone at all, because I can’t trust anybody but myself, and obviously that’s a sign that I’m not ready for another relationship but it would be nice to have all those feelings back that I took for granted, the butterflies in my stomach.
