akila

I feel so... UGH. Guilty - I should be working but I feel like a need a giant mental reset. Like taking acid and sitting in the rain in a tree all day listening to jazz. I'm supposed to be making this animation - and I've been fucking OVER it since 3 weeks ago. I actually don't care, but I still have Mr Guilt Elephant on my back since that's how I've become with all the hard working.

I want to chill with friends on the last day of the "holiday" (HA!) tomorrow - and fuck it, I am. Marks are not more important than my mental health.

I made myself a portfolio cause I need to intern this summer, but I dont really want to apply at any companies except this other one I applied to. It's the only one that attracts me - guess I have to make a back up plan... Meh

- I just decided, if it finally starts raining this week I am gonna do that acid idea. Don't know when I'll find the time, but it has to be done before I write exams.