aki1

well i had to suck it up and call the bar i worked at briefly before my accident
somebody asked me if there was bad blood
answer is no
But it was a place i didnt like as soon as i started working
very very little cash as far as tips go
extremly negative vibe, Rob used to say its almost like they sucked all my positive attitude and personality out of me because after every shift i just wouldnt be myself
and it had a somewhat questionable crowd in there at night time
and yupp it got worse during the 4 months i was gone due to my injury
they now have a metal detector installed at the door
because somebody got stabbed in there
so frankly no i really dont want to go back there
but as ive said in a blog before u do what u have to do

no doubt i love the kid like she was my own
but she isnt
she has been raised by her mother and i can honestly say there are things she does and says
that i would never allow my child
but
she isnt my kid and it isnt my place to correct the behaviour that her mother finds ok
she has been on a kick last couple of days to question every statement i make
pretty much indicating im a liar
and that makes me boil
its hard to correct that behaviour
im not saying i want her to be a boble head that goes along with everything that is said but i do draw the line at some point
several times ive had to prove to her that what im saying is a fact and not a opinion
Rob got irritated with me yesterday when i questioned her motive behind her constant challenging
which mind u i deal with all day til he gets home
and yet the one time she did it to him yesterday it was very obvious he got irritated and that was after only one time
thank god im older and more patient and tolerate more nowdays
and i have to say
no matter how much love i have for this little girl
not having any privacy or alone time is hard when ur used to it
i can honestly say i am so sick of cartoons LOL

yupp it got really tight on money while alley has been here
several reasons
having paid 400 for her ticket and not having recieved half of the amount from Alleys mother took a toll
got a water bill for a whole year that was 300
having a much higher foodcost during the time alley is here
(she is kinda picky and believe it or not actually out eats both me and rob
and all that does is equals a ton of stress on me because i can not stand being broke and scraping by
especially sincce up til now i havent been able to work
i cant even go look for a job since i have alley all day long and i refuse to drag her from bar to bar
thats where the old bar i used to work at comes in
all i had to do was make a call to get shifts there
which by the way im working there saturday and sunday night