aki1

ok warning is fair
its going to be a longer one, ive got to much on my mind
i always look at my friends blogs to see whats going on in the world whats going on with life
cause ive learned (not saying im ancient LOL) through life a variety of things
as in ok i get it i learned my lesson
well im having issues figuring this one out
like seriously gimme a break
being broke due to the fact robs income is the only one
we pay all bills and then its tight
friggin hamster wheel
but ive done that in life and if i may say so myself i did pretty friggin good
i ate ramen noodles through college when dad through me out of the house at 17
so i know that drill
ok the helplessness is a complitely different ballgame
never been helpless before
so i guess i can learn that lesson
being helpless leads automatically to thankfullnes
and i feel alot of that
thankful that rob is here
thankful that rob does everything
thankful that really since this happened we have had like zero arguments
becuause of the simple fact that it wouldnt be fair since i cant walk away when he starts getting to verbal
well its my way of having told him that i dont deal with behaviour like that
so he calms down we talk about it
ive spent most of my life dodging bullets
but i am so friggin tired of it
and today it was the stupidest shit the lit my flame
i know he must be worn out and i have to say that rob has never openly shown in any way or shape that i was a burden because of my injury
well i asked for something he must have been cranky and replied
you can get it
i tried (not in front of him LOL) couldnt get it
got pissed and didnt want anything to do with the situation
i came back he said u didnt get it
i replied i changed my mind
ok so im not really pissed at rob because i know it is a lot do handle and he is doing terrific
and i should handle this better but im not
im pissed
why
i cant figure out what it is i am supposed to learn from this
im just mad and i just really needed to get my why:s out
on the better part of life is
before all this happened today
i had one hell of a regaining my sexual power back weekend LOL
ive gotten soooo much booty this weekend
that inspite of the fact im pissed
im still smiling
you where warned LOL
so what did u do this weekend

p.s the one thins did is making my mind up about my next tattoo
carpe diem and carpe noctem
i think the placement will be above my elbows
if it ends up being like i want it
looking at me from behind you will be able to read the words
for those whom know the quotes something to stop and think about
for the ones whom dont know
ask and i will tell you
hmm i guess it answers my question
the why i mean