akasha823

So I am in Texas now. And I am kind of overwhelmed. It has been a long few days; spent in a car with my oldest brother, who I love dearly but cannot stand. He is not a bad person, but has a very skewed view of reality and doesn't own up to the things that he needs to.

Oh well, the important thing is that we made it to MOM!!

I am trying to be strong, but it has been really hard. She looks frail and it is hard to see her so tired and reliant on others. But the hardest part is over, I know, but I cannot help but feel bad for not being there during the surgery. Both my parents agree that I would not have been able to handle the sight of her hooked up to the machines and stuff. And they were so right. I am having trouble wrapping my head around it right now and all she has is oxygen.

I get to spend a week here and I am glad for the time with Mom and Dad. I am going to visit with a lot of relatives and go to my Grandfathers gravesite for the first time since his funeral. I miss him and it is still difficult to be here and not be able to see him or hear his voice. But his spirit is here and he will always be with me.

I am going to try to get some sleep. But thank goodness for my laptop and a working wireless connection. It would have been a pain in the ass to try to keep up with SG on my blackberry.

Thanks again for your support folks.

Hope you are all well out there.

XOXO