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Week three of abstaining from hardcore porn and masturbation... Five weeks of single life... And It's a fucking roller coaster. I'm definitely going through some withdrawal symptoms. Mostly physiological. I've always been in touch with my emotions. lately though, it's been a little over whelming. I flat out started balling the other day watching a video of a cat being rescued and revived from a...
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Four weeks since I bid my lover of 5 years good bye. Two weeks since I stop looking at hardcore porn and have been abstaining from masturbation. And this last week has been a challenge. Being present with my loneliness has been anything besides easy. I've become aware of how my desires to watch porn flix is a reaction to my intense emotions of loneliness,...
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Last night Kat (my ex as of ~3 weeks ago) texted me. "I miss you so much". I was just about to fall a sleep. But seeing someone who I spent the last 5 years caring about calling out like that was heart wrenching. I wanted to reply with words of comfort. Though I abstained... Their is nothing I can say that will make her...
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So I've never used a blog before. But I'm willing to give it try because I had some interesting thoughts I wanted to right down.

Three weeks ago was the end of a five year relationship for me. One week ago was when I decided to test myself. I stopped looking at hardcore porn and have abstained from masturbating. I'm not apposed to either of...
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