akaadam

I need a shoulder to just cry on for an hour or two. I'm getting weaker and weaker everyday and I grow more tired by the second. I don't know what to do with my life. I'm not in school anymore. I'm busting my ass for shitty money. My mom has ruined my life financial leaving me with no vehicle or money due to her drug habits. My only way out seems to be the military. One problem. I'm absolutely in love with my girlfriend. Id do anything for her and she says the feelings are mutual. But today she told me if I joined the military she would have to break up with me.. she said she couldn't handle the distance that a military life style creates. That absolutely crushes me. I can't lose her.. so I guess I'm not going to do it.. :'( I don't know what I'm doing with my life.. I wanna give up so bad..