Well, on my fucking day off I went out and did what set out to do. I bought a bottle of 1800 and drank it down with a friend of mine. After awhile the fucker lost his mind and wanted to walk home. A friend in AA came pulling up and brought the asshole back. He would have froze to death trying to walk home from here. A fuckload of drama came shortly after. Next time a do a " Bottle Night" I think it would be best if I did it alone, fucking lightweights.
I'd like to fucking quit smoking today, the keyword is like to. In two weeks I drive the ex to go have surgery. We don't talk anymore her and I. I wasn't going to take her when I talked to her the other day but you know what? If I can do kind things for my friends then the least I can do is to be there when she needs me. It sucked being dumped as fucked up as she did it but oh well, life goes on.
My friend Matt that I stay with temporarily, cooked a fuckload of food yesterday. We had a bunch of fuckers over after we left the bar. After two beer runs later I'm surprised i'm actually awake right now, no shit. Christ I blew alot of money, Yager bombs aren't cheap you know.
After drinking the 1800, the next day I tore the place apart looking for me keys. 4 hours later I remembered, thanks to a friend of mine, that they were in the chandalier, don't ask.....L8er....AJ
I'd like to fucking quit smoking today, the keyword is like to. In two weeks I drive the ex to go have surgery. We don't talk anymore her and I. I wasn't going to take her when I talked to her the other day but you know what? If I can do kind things for my friends then the least I can do is to be there when she needs me. It sucked being dumped as fucked up as she did it but oh well, life goes on.
My friend Matt that I stay with temporarily, cooked a fuckload of food yesterday. We had a bunch of fuckers over after we left the bar. After two beer runs later I'm surprised i'm actually awake right now, no shit. Christ I blew alot of money, Yager bombs aren't cheap you know.
After drinking the 1800, the next day I tore the place apart looking for me keys. 4 hours later I remembered, thanks to a friend of mine, that they were in the chandalier, don't ask.....L8er....AJ
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jennynicole:
.. I love her and I know she loves me. And you and I both know I'm not strong enough to be on my own. You would hear me more pathetic than you could ever fucking imagine if we split. I know it sounds shitty, but most of the time I don't feel like I'm settling. It's just those moments that get to me.. the ones when I just need her. I just need to be weak for a moment now and then and I want her to hold me up. Life isn't like that though. There's not ever gonna be a moment that its convenient or okay for me to fall apart. As much as I may feel like I need to, I can't. I just need to fucking suck it up and get over it that I accepted my role as the strong one and now I need to live up to it and stop wanting her to be something she's not. She isn't the one who's gonna support me, and maybe its not a bad thing.. maybe its supposed to teach me that I CAN be the strong one that holds it all together. I dunno.. I'm rambling. sorry. You know who loves ya, and hopefully we'll get to talk soon. miss you 
abyssia:
i was gonna say something but fuck it - we spoke, i've got a migraine and i know you'll call. sometime.... maybe one day you'll pick me up and we'll go for a drive. i hope i typed it all ok with eyes closed.