honestly i have nothing to report. but i saw this on you tube, check it out
lol im such a nerd.
lol im such a nerd.
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So to be honest, i thought i wasn't gonna have time to "blog" at all for a while, but i was wrong (what else is new lmfao). My insomnia would be driving me insane if i wasn't taking stuff to help me sleep (melatonin) and having a little to much to drink on the side.
I stopped taking my "herbal" anti depressants last week(casue i...
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_holden_:
You aren't the only one who spills their guts on SG lol I definetely take part in that as well. Hang in there my friend. There has got to be brighter days ahead...at least that is what I try to tell myself. Take heart in the fact that you are a fantastic, caring, and sweet guy. There aren't many of those left so don't be down on yourself. I think you are great!!! 
mayhem:
Maybe you need to let it out a bit! Sometimes I find supressing sadness makes it worse later. At least you had someone there to be with you. I
I have begun to wonder what it would be like to be a psychologist of late. I have been curious as to how my deteriorating mental state would seem to a shrink. Am i losing sanity? no i think i am slipping more and more towards apathy. Whether it comes complete lack of anything to care about or believe in, i find myself not only...
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silencia:
*sending a wave of excess fun* 
Didi it work?
Didi it work?
erny:
lol me too man....
im what you would call "black irish"
spanish and irish.... lol
IM BLACK!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehe
bad joke
im what you would call "black irish"
spanish and irish.... lol
IM BLACK!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehe
bad joke
Okay so it's been a lttile while since i've posted but honestly i dont have anything to talk about lmao. Just the same old emotional downward spiral lol. So instead of talking about my short comings i dug out my "journal " and i'm gonna a little peice i worte called "Night Sky." Its nothing great but it give me something to write about.
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silencia:
So not hearing from me would ruin your entire week? that's no good. Well, here I am 
Last night I should have been working on some important things for my move to Portland, but instead i caught myself doing everything else BUT that
Last night I should have been working on some important things for my move to Portland, but instead i caught myself doing everything else BUT that
mayhem:
Hey maybe I need to be punched in the face!! Maybe that would help!! Hmmm.. Maybe if we both beat the shit out of echother we will feel better!! xoxoxo
So i'm actually just posting this blog cause i hate stagnation, and my other blog was getting old lmao. So my brother lost there basktbeall game the other day, so they are done till next season. Now i have nothing to do on my friday nights lol. the girl who has been given my problems asked me to go to a concert on friday 
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silencia:
*sigh* we should join forces and kick stupid people in the face.
mayhem:
Thanks I should be alright with the move just busy as hellor I would tottally go with you!!! UGH I hate moving and I had nightmares all night so I woke up feeling like shit! Coffee time!
Okay so this a update on the last week or so.
So most recent valentines day sucked like always lol. I just worked came home had some rum and am waiting to pass out so i can go to work again tonight lol. Gawd the graveyard shift sux. Neway along those lines the girl that was fucking with my head has been caling me the...
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So most recent valentines day sucked like always lol. I just worked came home had some rum and am waiting to pass out so i can go to work again tonight lol. Gawd the graveyard shift sux. Neway along those lines the girl that was fucking with my head has been caling me the...
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cptpyjama:
Good to hear it's helping.
Do you have symptoms for when you're likely to fall apart? I know it's going to happen to me, I can sense small changes in my attitude and behaviour... if you can pick up on that sometimes you can head it off before things get too bad, while you've still got enough willpower to say "Fuck that, I don't want to depressed"... well I don't know, sometimes I can do it. It's hard, but if it works...
Anyway, I hope things go well for you.
Do you have symptoms for when you're likely to fall apart? I know it's going to happen to me, I can sense small changes in my attitude and behaviour... if you can pick up on that sometimes you can head it off before things get too bad, while you've still got enough willpower to say "Fuck that, I don't want to depressed"... well I don't know, sometimes I can do it. It's hard, but if it works...
Anyway, I hope things go well for you.
silencia:
Depression is tough to get over. I wish you the best, and hope that things get better for you soon. Cheers, doll!
Ok so i just gotta put this one out there. So there is this girl (i mentioned her in the last blog the one that never called me back). So I'm a pretty easy going guy (really i swear lol). SO her friend tells me the other night how she's been leading me on. She already had a boyfriend and that i'm the "fall back...
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_holden_:
I'm sorry that life has been treating you shitty lately. Keep hanging in there and I am sure there will be a girl out there who appreciates you for who you truly are. In the mean time don't settle for anything less. You are such a sweetheart and I always appreciate your nice comments. Take care and if you ever need to vent I am around.
mayhem:
UGGHHH I hate love!! HAHA HAppy v-day
Ok so it's been an interesting week. Most of it culminating today.
Neway so i got my hair halfway done. I really don't want to put a pic up until its fully done. I have so far taken off about 3 inches (it's still about shoulder length). I might take another inch and a half off. It's pretty black now but we only went with...
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Neway so i got my hair halfway done. I really don't want to put a pic up until its fully done. I have so far taken off about 3 inches (it's still about shoulder length). I might take another inch and a half off. It's pretty black now but we only went with...
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silencia:
Haha.. Thanks for the offer
If I take over the world, you can totally be someone important
If I take over the world, you can totally be someone important
erny:
lol
thank god i dont have a peker..... that would hurt
naw i dont kick ass anymore.... i bury them intelectually....
that and she isnt worth my time... never was really unless she was on her back lol
<3 erny
thank god i dont have a peker..... that would hurt
naw i dont kick ass anymore.... i bury them intelectually....
that and she isnt worth my time... never was really unless she was on her back lol
<3 erny
Ok so this is kinda a boring update on ryuu's not so exciting life.
So i haven't gotten my hair done yet. I'm having trouble getting a hold of "my" stylist (she's a friend of the family) but she was snowed in, and it's hard to find time to call with my normal sleep schedual (10am to 4pm). But hopefully early next week.
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So i haven't gotten my hair done yet. I'm having trouble getting a hold of "my" stylist (she's a friend of the family) but she was snowed in, and it's hard to find time to call with my normal sleep schedual (10am to 4pm). But hopefully early next week.
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silencia:
You know, I've always been a skeptic of love. I was the girl that would always that she never wanted to get married, true love doesn't exist, so on and so forth. Now that I've experienced love, I do find it very intriguing, yet I'm still not convinced that there is such thing as true love. Call it pessimistic, but in this day and age, the odds of having a lasting relationship are getting slimmer and slimmer.
erny:
okay so im thinking... hott pink and blue/turquiose with white...... (all over black though) just chunk the shit in my bangs and stuff..... YAY!
So this post is esntially "i'm supposed to work tonight and the bloody fucking road is closed so i can't go."
Arrgh. I am soooo sick of the snow. Just when we think we have gotten through it we get another storm. My baby can handle the snow, but with the road closed it's kinda a mute point right. the thing that sux is i'm...
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Arrgh. I am soooo sick of the snow. Just when we think we have gotten through it we get another storm. My baby can handle the snow, but with the road closed it's kinda a mute point right. the thing that sux is i'm...
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_holden_:
Thanks for your sweet comments on my blog. I really appreciate it. Take care and I hope you are doing well 
colada:
Death to the snow!
PS. Thanks for taking the time to read my survey
Psst. you should totally move to Portland, it's awesome here