ok so i need some advice. I'm kinda in a sticky situation and i would like to know what y'all think, or just an opinion on the matter. So my brother and his girlfriend just broke up a couple weeks ago. they dated for a little over a year. I think my brother was about ready to propose before she called it off. Neway she...
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_holden_:
Just wanted to stop by. It's been awhile since we have talked. I hope things are going well. Here's my advice take it or leave it. It is only my experience after all, but it really hurt me when I found out that my old roommates were hanging out with my ex on a regular basis. I wouldn't have liked it either way because they knew what an abusive prick he was, but if they were going to hang out with him I wish they would have told me. Good luck in whatever you decide.
silencia:
Dude, you've been awesome to me since day 1. I've always appreciated your comments. Thanks for rockin' real hard, mate 
*deep breath* okie dokie. so i have had a very eventful past couple weeks, some good, some not so good, and i made some big life changing descions. IDK, some of this is a really big deal, so if u read this ty so much for your imput, it means a lot 
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well i guess i'll start with the bad cause, well i'd rather...
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silencia:
Portland really isn't that expenisve to move to. If you're able to save up enough to cover you for a couple of months (until you find a job out here), you'll be more than fine. The people here are amazing, and there's always tons of stuff to do. Think about it, kid. Portland has probably been one of the best decisions I've made... EVER! 
silencia:
Well, the cost of living here is ridiculously cheap compared to lots of places I've been to/heard about. The SE quadrant of Portland is nice and cheap and there's tons of things to do here (just try to stay west of 82nd stand north of Powell).
So i have kinda come to a crosroads in my life. i have 2 definite paths set before me. one path is this same familiar comfortable path that i have traveled my whole life. The other branches off into uncharted territory for me. okay so enough of the generic life metaphors lmfao. IDK what u all believe, but i think everything in life happens for...
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_holden_:
Boo hiss!!! I'm still cranky, but I appreciate your nice comments like always! Everything does happen for a reason I do believe that with a few exception. Hope you are well. Talk to you soon. 
ok, so i know i havent had much to say lately lol. not much interesting goin on for me to be honest. Mentally i am doin pretty good 
. but its probably cause im so busy i dont have time to think :p.
well i just really needed to put these thoughts into words so thats y im posting a blog. So i was having...
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. but its probably cause im so busy i dont have time to think :p.
well i just really needed to put these thoughts into words so thats y im posting a blog. So i was having...
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silencia:
Aww. Well, thank you for checkin' 'em out. Limbo girls could always use a little extra support during their tedious wait until they go live.
silencia:
Dude, what you are talking about? Check out this link :VEGAN beer list in the US. That actual website has all kinds of useful information. Very awesome.
Are you talking about the testicular torsion episode. God, I loved the end when they're doing the infomercial and you can tell that they're reading from cards. Again, very awesome.
Are you talking about the testicular torsion episode. God, I loved the end when they're doing the infomercial and you can tell that they're reading from cards. Again, very awesome.
honestly i have nothing to report. but i saw this on you tube, check it out
lol im such a nerd.
lol im such a nerd.
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_holden_:
I'm glad to hear you are doing well. My trip was wonderful...I am sad to be back dealing with this shitty weather. Oh well what can ya do. Take care and let me know how you are.
PS. Thanks for taking the time to read my survey
PS. Thanks for taking the time to read my survey
silencia:
Awww. you're sweet. the set was approved this morning. My myspace page (the picture section) now holds 2 very lovely exerpts from the set.
Psst. you should totally move to Portland, it's awesome here
Psst. you should totally move to Portland, it's awesome here
So to be honest, i thought i wasn't gonna have time to "blog" at all for a while, but i was wrong (what else is new lmfao). My insomnia would be driving me insane if i wasn't taking stuff to help me sleep (melatonin) and having a little to much to drink on the side.
I stopped taking my "herbal" anti depressants last week(casue i...
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_holden_:
You aren't the only one who spills their guts on SG lol I definetely take part in that as well. Hang in there my friend. There has got to be brighter days ahead...at least that is what I try to tell myself. Take heart in the fact that you are a fantastic, caring, and sweet guy. There aren't many of those left so don't be down on yourself. I think you are great!!!
mayhem:
Maybe you need to let it out a bit! Sometimes I find supressing sadness makes it worse later. At least you had someone there to be with you. I
I have begun to wonder what it would be like to be a psychologist of late. I have been curious as to how my deteriorating mental state would seem to a shrink. Am i losing sanity? no i think i am slipping more and more towards apathy. Whether it comes complete lack of anything to care about or believe in, i find myself not only...
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silencia:
*sending a wave of excess fun*
Didi it work?
Didi it work?
erny:
lol me too man....
im what you would call "black irish"
spanish and irish.... lol
IM BLACK!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehe
bad joke
im what you would call "black irish"
spanish and irish.... lol
IM BLACK!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehe
bad joke
Okay so it's been a lttile while since i've posted but honestly i dont have anything to talk about lmao. Just the same old emotional downward spiral lol. So instead of talking about my short comings i dug out my "journal " and i'm gonna a little peice i worte called "Night Sky." Its nothing great but it give me something to write about.
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silencia:
So not hearing from me would ruin your entire week? that's no good. Well, here I am
Last night I should have been working on some important things for my move to Portland, but instead i caught myself doing everything else BUT that
Last night I should have been working on some important things for my move to Portland, but instead i caught myself doing everything else BUT that
mayhem:
Hey maybe I need to be punched in the face!! Maybe that would help!! Hmmm.. Maybe if we both beat the shit out of echother we will feel better!! xoxoxo
So i'm actually just posting this blog cause i hate stagnation, and my other blog was getting old lmao. So my brother lost there basktbeall game the other day, so they are done till next season. Now i have nothing to do on my friday nights lol. the girl who has been given my problems asked me to go to a concert on friday 
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silencia:
*sigh* we should join forces and kick stupid people in the face.
mayhem:
Thanks I should be alright with the move just busy as hellor I would tottally go with you!!! UGH I hate moving and I had nightmares all night so I woke up feeling like shit! Coffee time!
Okay so this a update on the last week or so.
So most recent valentines day sucked like always lol. I just worked came home had some rum and am waiting to pass out so i can go to work again tonight lol. Gawd the graveyard shift sux. Neway along those lines the girl that was fucking with my head has been caling me the...
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So most recent valentines day sucked like always lol. I just worked came home had some rum and am waiting to pass out so i can go to work again tonight lol. Gawd the graveyard shift sux. Neway along those lines the girl that was fucking with my head has been caling me the...
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cptpyjama:
Good to hear it's helping.
Do you have symptoms for when you're likely to fall apart? I know it's going to happen to me, I can sense small changes in my attitude and behaviour... if you can pick up on that sometimes you can head it off before things get too bad, while you've still got enough willpower to say "Fuck that, I don't want to depressed"... well I don't know, sometimes I can do it. It's hard, but if it works...
Anyway, I hope things go well for you.
Do you have symptoms for when you're likely to fall apart? I know it's going to happen to me, I can sense small changes in my attitude and behaviour... if you can pick up on that sometimes you can head it off before things get too bad, while you've still got enough willpower to say "Fuck that, I don't want to depressed"... well I don't know, sometimes I can do it. It's hard, but if it works...
Anyway, I hope things go well for you.
silencia:
Depression is tough to get over. I wish you the best, and hope that things get better for you soon. Cheers, doll!
Ok so i just gotta put this one out there. So there is this girl (i mentioned her in the last blog the one that never called me back). So I'm a pretty easy going guy (really i swear lol). SO her friend tells me the other night how she's been leading me on. She already had a boyfriend and that i'm the "fall back...
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_holden_:
I'm sorry that life has been treating you shitty lately. Keep hanging in there and I am sure there will be a girl out there who appreciates you for who you truly are. In the mean time don't settle for anything less. You are such a sweetheart and I always appreciate your nice comments. Take care and if you ever need to vent I am around.
mayhem:
UGGHHH I hate love!! HAHA HAppy v-day