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As of reccent Ive been going back and forth from nostalgic teamed up with depression to hyper-motivated, lets get this shit rolling. Mood swings arent fun, because they dont let you accomplish anything. However the fact that I have both instead of just the shitty side all the time makes me wonder if Im getting better as far as the PTSD goes. I sure hope so, because this year (my years start in May in my mind) cannot be like the last 3, or Ill probably be shit house rat crazy... i think i used that term in my blog before, but thats ok, its descriptive and I like it. New thing in life include the threat of losing my rank in the Marines, which is pending on if I return with a tattoo or not, which means its not pending at all, im definitely getting a sleeve and therefore definitley losing my rank. Oh fucking well. Everything else is going ok, I just need to line up life in my crosshairs so i can fucking pull that trigger. Errrr. Later gents.