ahriman

I was mean to someone the other day, and I can't stop thinking about it. It wasn't that I meant to hurt anyone on purpose, but my lack of thinking about consquences has created the same effect as if I had set out to make someone cry.

In my efforts to become a stronger person, more confident in myself, I crossed the line between confidence and arrogance. I tried to project a confident person; but I'm not. And in the end, I hurt someone's feelings because of it.

I'm 24 now; an age where most people would have got there whole life's direction in order by. Me, not so much. I'm not an incredibly well adjusted person it seems. I guess I've never gotten the whole social interaction thing down pat.

I find it hard to relax with people I don't know, and don't open up to let people see the person I am until I really know them.. By which time, most people simply write me off as a personality-challenged goofball. Which I suppose might be true.

I have a hard time with being myself sometimes, and it negatively impacts others. And I have to become a happier person with me; otherwise, I'll end up pushing everyone who's worth knowing away.