agonistes_vental

One day I will get things right,I will find one that is alike me and see's the beauty I do hold,though it is on a different level it's still beauty in itself.I hate sitting here thinling into the many past memories that haunt me of what my life has been like and what is still continuing to this day,it does bother me to see in wht I do I stand alone in many ways from family to friends I hold only few clsoe for that is what seems to be accepted in myl ife,I am used to biggotry and many putting me down for me beliefs in which I follow and what I do and that's quite alright but as the days go away and nights return I am clouded in thoguh of so many whom think badly of me,I know I am a good person,unique and honored in who I am.But it does make me sad to see that I don't havem any close o me even though I reach out to me,I know my knowledge of things are quite vast and olden and that I myself am a kindred spirit,but it does hurt to see that you are the only one standing,I wish to find tohse alike in vast forms of spirituality,compassion, and love but that in itself is a longing wish.I know I am human and that I am intune with my emotions but I do get bothered that even now I have not a hand to hold on to,and warmth from the heart,I hold on to memories and not the rpesent of things,I wish that I could findo ne that would stand by me cause I feel meself leaning a bit.