agonistes_vental

Yesterday was a grand day.I was able to set foot into the warm grasses of my hometown.I was able to smell the country flowers and feel the sting of the "skeeters".I've so missed it,the imagery,the feeling of peace.and family.I was so happy to see my father again ,it was odd though he colored his hair and he looks younger.Quite funny but whatever.I was able to see my nieces grow stronger more defined to this earth and it makes me pround to have them in my life.They areso young and so accepting of me.Even though the rest of the family seems to deny who I am and somewhat judge me.I still love them all so much.I may live and walk differently but I am still the same.I do wonder when they will finally be okay with me.But I know I shouldn't worry I am proud and strong,but still I am human at times.
It's quite weird to say,this is my love,my town.I love it all the grass,tree's,and the nature,oh it's beautiful it all is.And yet I know I must deny it all for if I stay I will be set down into a chained melody.A proxy for I wat to stay but I will never be allowed because of what I am.I will never settle in thesem any years to come.But it's worth it all.I trade in a home,a body,and life to walk in devotion of saving people.But we must all sacrifice thing in order to acheive new knowledge and sense.I've done so this early and yet I truely soar.
It makes me sad though to know I will be a faded memory to my nieces,and memory of being nothing at home.But I will have to deal with it for I am more than what they see.I must say that even though I am home I a leaving so soon.I have things to do here an also a few old friends I must open up.But I will walk far and wide to do what I am meant to.Floridia,Texas,Missouri,California,and also Ohio here I come.With each state lies voices who need me,people who I love and care for and I will be there soon.For I am only a dream away from helping.I wish and dream though that more people listened to the heart and spirit.I often wonder if it even makes sense to people anymore?