agentofoblivion

I am back to doing writing and music. It feels good. Damn, it feels awesome.


Sample of my current work:

You have lost everything you know and will never get it back
All the things you took for granted and everything you were handed
You walked away from it all for a taste of my life and crimes
Had to have it all and you were willing to do whatever it took to get it
So now it doesn't look so glamorous and you don't feel so proud
But there are no friends or family to crawl back to
No one left to love you and no one who will lie to console you
You burned your bridges and threw it all away
You gave up everything so sure that you knew what was right
Because you had to have the thing you were told was forbidden
And now you sit here in my worldly hell and curse me for it
But I never asked you to come here and I didn't invite you to stay
You came to prove something to yourself and you failed
I'm exactly what I told you I was and you have only yourself to blame
So stop feeling so sorry and learn to love it or at least live with it
Life is all about dying
You either kill yourself to live or live to kill yourself
So stop screaming and crying and flailing and lying
And try to enjoy the ride

Do you still feel it? How long can you fake it?
You could walk out the door right now and lie your way back to the top
Or you could walk a different path and end up on your back
And make it all my fault
Why wait any longer? Do you think it will ever get better?
You could sit here and wait for someone or something to save you
Or you could just give in to the truth that it will never happen
And make it all my fault
Do you still feel anything? How long can you keep faking?
You will never be the princess you were but you don't want to be a whore
It's so much harder when you have no one to turn to or nowhere to go
And you know it's your own fault
Why wait another minute? It will not get better don't you get it?
You keep crying about what has been done to you
It's so much harder to admit that you did it all by yourself
And you know it's your own fault
In your mind and in your lies
In your heart and in your eyes
Do you still feel it? How long can you fake it?
Why wait any longer? Do you think it will ever get better?

Stop trying to do the right thing when you know how wrong you are
There is no simple solution because through it all there is not a problem
You are sick now and no one in your former world will want you
Too many nights laying with the filth and the forsaken has made you the same
You don't look so glamorous anymore and you will never make them proud
But they were never your friends and you don't need a family
You can lie right here with the unwanted and the unclean
You are so angry about nothing and consumed by everything
So stop fighting and realize there is nothing left to fight for
You have given yourself for a taste and now you are hooked
There is no love here in this hell but its honest and its real
I never invited you to come here and I didn't ask you to stay
Whatever you have to prove is worthless and a waste of time
I am just another reason and another person for you to cry about
I don't feel sorry for you and I have long since learned to love this
Life is all about dying
You either kill yourself to live or live to kill yourself
Give in, give up, give it away and get on with the show
And try to enjoy the ride

Do you still feel anything? How long can you keep faking?
Why wait another minute? It will not get better don't you get it?
In your mind and in your lies
In your heart and in your eyes
Do you still feel it? How long can you fake it?
Why wait any longer? Do you think it will ever get better?