Yeah, Im updating again. I have to be up ridiculously early, so Im just pulling an all-nighter. I assure you, this is going to seem very random.
1. I wish, more than anything, that I could combine different aspects of people I know into one person. Im happier than I have been in years, but something is missing. And I know exactly what it is. I cant do anything about it either.
2. I like to think opposites attract, or at least, they can compliment each other in a relationship. Im grasping onto the idea that this is possible. I never thought the idea of marriage would come up so soon in my life. I hate the reason it was brought up, and now I dont know what to think.
3. I cant seem to get enough time with the people I feel like I am really going to miss. I wonder if they're going to miss me. I wonder if I have any effect at all on the people I know here. (Here = midwest)
4. I have a way of taking on everyone else's problems as my own. This is who I am, and I like it that way. But Im faced with one I dont think I can fix, and its making me crazy. I hate knowing my friends are unhappy. I HATE it.
5. To be honest, I just feel like crap all around. I want hugs, and I cant have them.
6. "they" play the weirdest commercials at 3am.
7. I feel like Im becoming as apathetic as I used to be, and it scares me.
8. You know that craving feeling you get when you really want something? The kind where you're just itching to go after it? That feeling is going to be my downfall. It's just so addicting.
9. Everytime I start to feel good about myself, someone shoves it in my face and fucks it up.
10. I deleted my entire Naked folder. Sorry. It'll be back soon, I think. I just need to sort my head out.
Im going to keep adding onto this every half hour or so when I have more I need to get out.
1. I wish, more than anything, that I could combine different aspects of people I know into one person. Im happier than I have been in years, but something is missing. And I know exactly what it is. I cant do anything about it either.
2. I like to think opposites attract, or at least, they can compliment each other in a relationship. Im grasping onto the idea that this is possible. I never thought the idea of marriage would come up so soon in my life. I hate the reason it was brought up, and now I dont know what to think.
3. I cant seem to get enough time with the people I feel like I am really going to miss. I wonder if they're going to miss me. I wonder if I have any effect at all on the people I know here. (Here = midwest)
4. I have a way of taking on everyone else's problems as my own. This is who I am, and I like it that way. But Im faced with one I dont think I can fix, and its making me crazy. I hate knowing my friends are unhappy. I HATE it.
5. To be honest, I just feel like crap all around. I want hugs, and I cant have them.
6. "they" play the weirdest commercials at 3am.
7. I feel like Im becoming as apathetic as I used to be, and it scares me.
8. You know that craving feeling you get when you really want something? The kind where you're just itching to go after it? That feeling is going to be my downfall. It's just so addicting.
9. Everytime I start to feel good about myself, someone shoves it in my face and fucks it up.
10. I deleted my entire Naked folder. Sorry. It'll be back soon, I think. I just need to sort my head out.
Im going to keep adding onto this every half hour or so when I have more I need to get out.
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I had some worries when I said "I do".... and now I know that I was an idiot for not listening to them...