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I sat underneath that tree and everything seemed so easy and clear. But that's how things always feel when you detach. Real life isn't as poetic because we never have the time to stop and see it. We step back with a movie or a song or a break and we remember everything that we used to believe in and then we realize we are...
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I am leaving again this month - heading out west where I have an amazing oppurtunity through my job. It feels amazing.

Everything in life is cyclical. It's funny how it works that way. It's also interesting to me how your thoughts that go out into the universe come back to you.

I am exhausted. I work too much. Crazy, novel thought, but true. What I'm doing is a "labor of love". People say that. It's a term they use when they think their work is important. Yes, the curriculums I'm adding to my work are important, but they're professionally important. We're not eliminating poverty or world debt here. We're not even growing free range chickens. SO...
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When I post a new blog, it says: You are Affecta, it should say: You are Affected. By everything - the wind blowing, the seaons changing, the swing of a mood.

Some people amaze me with their seemingly endless capabiltiy to forgive, to move on, not to dwell. I dwell. I hold onto things for forever. Not tangible things. I don't keep charms or bits...
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Flip me upside-fucking down. I think I had a mini-breakdown today. A mini, mini, baby one. I hate it when people see me vulnerable. Hate it. And just like that - she can knock me over with a pin and I want to freak the fuck out. We all have a niche a "specialty" if you will. Fuck. Let me do mine. Accept that someone...
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I was 21 and rail thin after a two month bout with mono. My hair was bleached platinum. I was a size 2. I wore a royal blue wrap dress. I had a silver bangle that reminded me of a snake on my wrist. It was the last semester I spent in college. If mono wasn't the death of me, it was the death of...
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How does it happen that people simply fall out of your life? You remember them when you hear a song or catch a clip of a movie, but their memory no longer fits in the daily routine of your life which is building a full-time career that includes 14 hour days and expense reports an trips to fancy conferences. Something resonates with me. I was...
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Does everyone lose their sanity at the same time?

Too far, too far, it could all get too cheap for me.