things on my mind:
- everyone i love and know is going to die. alot of them will die before me and i will have to suffer the loss. im scared of it.
- alot of my friends are probably going to move away in the next 10 years or so due to economy, opportunities, dreams etc. my husband and i will most likely not live in this area. everyone who i am close with will not live near me. i will lose them. you say you will keep in touch but throw in a few hours drive, a kid or two and simple day to day life and i bet you it wont last. this scares me and upsets me.
the above two topics have been swirling around my head lately. the losses i have experienced this year have left me a little paranoid and jaded. not to mention terrified. yes i always knew them both in the back of my head but the reality never really hits you.
- my marriage isnt perfect. we still have a lot of work to do as a couple. im not perfect and neither is he but that doesnt mean it doesnt work. just because it isnt the same as your marriage doesnt mean that we are wrong. (not to anyone in particular on here)
- i think i wanna go back to being blonde
- i wish i had better ways of coping with stress and anxiety. i wish i was able to relax more. i need to find a way to relax more.
- i need a fucking vacation.
- everyone i love and know is going to die. alot of them will die before me and i will have to suffer the loss. im scared of it.
- alot of my friends are probably going to move away in the next 10 years or so due to economy, opportunities, dreams etc. my husband and i will most likely not live in this area. everyone who i am close with will not live near me. i will lose them. you say you will keep in touch but throw in a few hours drive, a kid or two and simple day to day life and i bet you it wont last. this scares me and upsets me.
the above two topics have been swirling around my head lately. the losses i have experienced this year have left me a little paranoid and jaded. not to mention terrified. yes i always knew them both in the back of my head but the reality never really hits you.
- my marriage isnt perfect. we still have a lot of work to do as a couple. im not perfect and neither is he but that doesnt mean it doesnt work. just because it isnt the same as your marriage doesnt mean that we are wrong. (not to anyone in particular on here)
- i think i wanna go back to being blonde
- i wish i had better ways of coping with stress and anxiety. i wish i was able to relax more. i need to find a way to relax more.
- i need a fucking vacation.
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(southern accent.)
Also, yeah, the economy sucks. I'm graduating college, and I don't think that I'll find a job. HUZZAH