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it's been a long couple months full of promise and regret. riddled with self loathing and apathy, but surprisingly filled with a confidence in the future which i thought had been lost up to this point. everything happens for a reason though and i can't continue to worry about the should've beens when there is so much i need to concentrate on now.

last saturday sold out again! it was my one year anniversary residency at this club here in chicago. unfortunately i was sick and lost my voice half way through the night...bleah.

listening to Fiona Apple's "Tidal" right now. i can't wait until her new album comes out this year! best music to listen to after a break up. i love her deep voice. so soulful and wrenchingly sad sounding. i am a heartbreaker...but i feel as though the only heart i truly break time and time again is my own. twisted, sick irony...how i hate thee!

working on the site as much as possible these days. Apnea and Lithium Picnic are featured in the gallery section. check it out:

the site

i think i will paint today. i like getting lost in work when my body aches like this and my mind whirs in a confused frenzy. i need to learn from my mistakes to ensure avoidance of this type of pain in the future.

babble. babble. babble. durrrr...



"when a girl will break a boy just because she can..."

goddamnit i am the queen of cheese.

aeon