tonight I will be celebrating my bestfriend's 25th birthday at the SG Burlesque show here in Chi-town. should be good times. listening to Built to Spill and feeling blue though. later this year i will be turning 25...i am getting old myself. faaaaa-uck.
my ex hates me...and I hate that he hates me. I still really love and respect him. but things did not work out and now this...it is so sad. so very sad. I dunno what to do. my friends tell me to ignore him and that he is being an immature psycho and is coping with the break-up by hating me.
ah well. i hate how things you do AFTER the break up some how affect whatever was felt or said DURING the past relationship. how does that work? that present actions change the past? fuck that.
"the weather" by built to spill is such an amazing song. it brings back distant memories of other distant boys...just now i can listen to it. for awhile i couldn't. why is it that certain songs can be such emotional landmines? it's not fair that someone can take a song or band away from you. i cannot listen to weakerthans because of a boy...errrr...
i get to see naked girls in a couple hours - i should be happy...but i couldn't be farther from.
i think i am gonna go cook a steak. really rare and bloody and drink red wine with it. a nice merlot. merrrrrr-lot. mermaids, mermen, and merlot.
i was a veggie for so many years and just this past month i have been getting meat cravings. not just any meat cravings. steak cravings. it is weird. i feel kinda bad - but fuck it. i feel shitty...and if eating a moo cow makes me feel better, so be it.
"the stars...gravitate toward you..."
my ex hates me...and I hate that he hates me. I still really love and respect him. but things did not work out and now this...it is so sad. so very sad. I dunno what to do. my friends tell me to ignore him and that he is being an immature psycho and is coping with the break-up by hating me.
ah well. i hate how things you do AFTER the break up some how affect whatever was felt or said DURING the past relationship. how does that work? that present actions change the past? fuck that.
"the weather" by built to spill is such an amazing song. it brings back distant memories of other distant boys...just now i can listen to it. for awhile i couldn't. why is it that certain songs can be such emotional landmines? it's not fair that someone can take a song or band away from you. i cannot listen to weakerthans because of a boy...errrr...
i get to see naked girls in a couple hours - i should be happy...but i couldn't be farther from.
i think i am gonna go cook a steak. really rare and bloody and drink red wine with it. a nice merlot. merrrrrr-lot. mermaids, mermen, and merlot.
i was a veggie for so many years and just this past month i have been getting meat cravings. not just any meat cravings. steak cravings. it is weird. i feel kinda bad - but fuck it. i feel shitty...and if eating a moo cow makes me feel better, so be it.
"the stars...gravitate toward you..."
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xo
They need nicotine patches, cept meat ones or something. o_o