There was my birthday. I've been alone at home the whole day before, in the evening I got invited to visit my only girlfriend (all my friends are boys, except for her) to be with her and her fianc.
We watched a really strange film on Arte, it's called "Im Reich der Sinne", jap. , Ai no korda).
Based on a real story. Main topic: sex, breath control until death, castration. Really a nice birthday.
My girlfriend's present for me was something I have been searching for for I guess years now: a Sticker Album
Selfmade! Because you cannot buy it here. Nowhere. Stickers en masse, but no albums. Now I have one with drawn cupcakes and hearts and such. Very cute.
On thursday then I've been alone again until the evening. Then the already mentioned girlfriend, her fianc, my roomie and I went to the cinema at 23:15h to watch Machete
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MACHETE!!!!! Yaaaaay!
What a fucking rad and badass film.
I love it.
Machete don't text.
That's it
The weekend after (my birthday was on a thursday) I visited my family in Dortmund. Mainly I got money from them which is good, because I have too many material wishes these times. And I owe my grandmother money for the car insurance. 500 left or so. It sucks.
I'm still depressed, I have not been at university the whole week, except for yesterday. Yesterday we had to finish and present our semester exercise in Art History.
My theme was "bodymodification"
I did some research on african tribes and found the Nuba, who do some kind of scarifications on themselves, especially on their women:
I bought some synthetic leather and tried to copy the structure of that scarred skin.
If you are interested, here are some pictures of the process:
Now I have to think about an accessory or a piece of clothing I could do with that.
Considering the fact that I thought I would just shit on that exercise and ignore not to pass the module, hoping that nobody would recognize it, I now find my idea and its realization pretty cool.
I just worked thursday night on it, because as I said yesterday we had to present it. Even with a PPP (Power Point Presentation). And I got it. Yeah!
Oh and I found out that my new smartphone cam is pretty good in doing macro photography:
But other pictures are kinda crappy 
It's been snowing yesterday and it's really, really cold. We have no real heater in our apartment. I freeze like fuck. Time to get the electric heating out of the basement I guess.
I want to sew, but I can't kick myself in my fucking ass to start.
I hate me for procrastinating like shit all the time.
Winter depression sucks. And I suck.
That's all 
Aenn
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