I feel somehow sad today, although it is a beautiful day, not that warm but sunny outside and until today my best buddy was here.
We had 4 great days, just stayin' in bed, cooking, watchin films and being naked all the time.
But now I feel.. mh. empty. All the problems come back into my brain, my glasses are broken, well not really broken but I lost a screw and cannot find it on my dusty floor. So I wear my motorbike-glasses. I look terrible
My car seems to be really bust, I wanted to take it to a garage today but my boy who has to come with me because he knows the people there had to go to the doctor.
And after that he will come over here and I think we will get some drama.
Polyamory has never been easy but at the moment everything sucks with him. He is always sad and he just told me on the telephone "we have to talk." - and I have no demand on drama - could puke when I think of his arrival
Why could it not be as easy as it was some months ago - two guys who liked each other and who had no problem with anything. Now just one of them changed and the one who stayed now behaves like a bitch (and not in a positive way). This is what I really hate, it's disgusting if someone behaves like this, and he should know that I will go if he keeps on doin so.
And just as if this wouldn't be enough, Unbelievably I have been okay for 5 days and now I am ill again.
I think I need some drugs to get my head clean. Thursday will be a great party in a nice club and I think I will feel better after that.
Need some escalation in my brain. Too much, in the last few weeks. :/
We had 4 great days, just stayin' in bed, cooking, watchin films and being naked all the time.
But now I feel.. mh. empty. All the problems come back into my brain, my glasses are broken, well not really broken but I lost a screw and cannot find it on my dusty floor. So I wear my motorbike-glasses. I look terrible
My car seems to be really bust, I wanted to take it to a garage today but my boy who has to come with me because he knows the people there had to go to the doctor.
And after that he will come over here and I think we will get some drama.
Polyamory has never been easy but at the moment everything sucks with him. He is always sad and he just told me on the telephone "we have to talk." - and I have no demand on drama - could puke when I think of his arrival
Why could it not be as easy as it was some months ago - two guys who liked each other and who had no problem with anything. Now just one of them changed and the one who stayed now behaves like a bitch (and not in a positive way). This is what I really hate, it's disgusting if someone behaves like this, and he should know that I will go if he keeps on doin so.
And just as if this wouldn't be enough, Unbelievably I have been okay for 5 days and now I am ill again.
I think I need some drugs to get my head clean. Thursday will be a great party in a nice club and I think I will feel better after that.
Need some escalation in my brain. Too much, in the last few weeks. :/
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diaz:
Thank you for your comment on my set honey <3 The complete set is up now if you want to have another look. xxx
mucfoto:
Dankeschn fr Deinen Blog-Entry :-)