aeneas

Sometimes I wonder.

Then I recognize the inherent pointlessness and futility of the activity, so I stop.

But then I cannot help but contemplate the greater meaning of the fact that I stopped doing it just because it was pointless and futile, which makes me think about whether something has to have a well-defined and practically useful objective in order to justify it.

Then I realize that I am still wondering, so I try to force myself to stop.

So I find myself wondering at what point I am no longer wondering. If I ask myself if I am wondering about whether I am wondering, isn't that in and of itself a form of wondering? Can I just sit here and not wonder? Does conscious self-awareness necessarily involve wondering? Then I have a snack and take a nap.