ahhh. crazy shit happened last night. i got locked out of natalies because she went to surrey or something, and i guess she didnt realise that we needed stuff so i bought a bunch of stuff (kleenex and paper towel and such), and yeah ... so i spent the night at my friend kevins, and my phone is dying and i hope natalie txts me soon, becasue i really want to put on clean clothes. hahaha. and shower.
i miss my face wash.
oh, and i totally miss brent who sent me the sweetest txt ever yesterday with a list of things he misses about me. i almost cried, seeing as how yeah ... nathan.
i feel like a jackass. but it seems that when brent isnt paying attention to me, i give up, and then i meet someone, and he just pops back up.
he said he falls asleep holding a letter i wrote to him. a 4 page letter. i analysed our relationship in it, and also told him about my latest tattoo idea. which has been evolving over the last year or so. but yeah ... he's so sweet, and so sensitive... i think i would destroy him. ahhh. whatever.
ooh. yeah. tattoo idea. thats what i really wanted to write about. at first, i wanted a lotus under my om, but then i read somewhere that the indian lotus seed can lie dormant for 200 years before germinating and blooming. since last summer, i feel like ive been on an upswing. my vacation in vancouver really inspired me, and now i live here ... my relationships with my family and a lot of my friends have improved, and so has my relationship with myself. i even had to confidence to apply to be an SG (still waiting for my ID, dammit. grr), and i just feel like im completely done lying dormant, im done with doing nothing. im done being a seed, and im just going to keep blossoming, you know? i know it might seem cheesy to some people, but the symbol of the lotus means so much to me. there's the fact that ive really been digging the yoga, and getting inside myself lately. and i was in a rut for a very long time, and im glad that im finally getting out of it. and i mean really getting out of it. im done with a lot of drugs, and i dont drink nearly as much as i used to - and i think that i can relate a large part of my life to being like a lotus seed. but then there is also my pseudo- indirect-relationship with india ... im from brampton, and there are a lot of people from india there. a lot of my friends are from india, and i have a really great respect for a lot of aspects of indian culture (though there is a lot i dont agree with, but thats a digression im not getting into right now). but yeah ... india ... i actually plan on backpacking there in the spring, and getting the tattoo when i come back. its going to be a long time to wait, but if i fall in love with india as much as i think i will, THEN i think will be the only appropriate time to get the tattoo.
so my next piece is going to be a rib piece. i have the image in my head - finding a trustworthy artist to get it down for me might be difficult, but ive put a lot of thought into it, so i really cant just get anyone to do it for me. and then there is the cost issue. its going to be a fairly big piece so it might take a lot of sessions, because i am a brokeass and cant save worth a shit. i need an artist who is going to care about it as much as i do.
ahhh. im done being longwinded. for now.
i miss brampton. WHERE CAN I FIND A GOOD, TASTY CHEAP SAMOSA IN VANCOUVER!? seriously, what is wrong with this town? cheap sushi all over. i dont eat fish so i dont care. where is the good, cheap indian food!? can anyone tell me, please. im dying here.
i miss my face wash.
oh, and i totally miss brent who sent me the sweetest txt ever yesterday with a list of things he misses about me. i almost cried, seeing as how yeah ... nathan.
i feel like a jackass. but it seems that when brent isnt paying attention to me, i give up, and then i meet someone, and he just pops back up.
he said he falls asleep holding a letter i wrote to him. a 4 page letter. i analysed our relationship in it, and also told him about my latest tattoo idea. which has been evolving over the last year or so. but yeah ... he's so sweet, and so sensitive... i think i would destroy him. ahhh. whatever.
ooh. yeah. tattoo idea. thats what i really wanted to write about. at first, i wanted a lotus under my om, but then i read somewhere that the indian lotus seed can lie dormant for 200 years before germinating and blooming. since last summer, i feel like ive been on an upswing. my vacation in vancouver really inspired me, and now i live here ... my relationships with my family and a lot of my friends have improved, and so has my relationship with myself. i even had to confidence to apply to be an SG (still waiting for my ID, dammit. grr), and i just feel like im completely done lying dormant, im done with doing nothing. im done being a seed, and im just going to keep blossoming, you know? i know it might seem cheesy to some people, but the symbol of the lotus means so much to me. there's the fact that ive really been digging the yoga, and getting inside myself lately. and i was in a rut for a very long time, and im glad that im finally getting out of it. and i mean really getting out of it. im done with a lot of drugs, and i dont drink nearly as much as i used to - and i think that i can relate a large part of my life to being like a lotus seed. but then there is also my pseudo- indirect-relationship with india ... im from brampton, and there are a lot of people from india there. a lot of my friends are from india, and i have a really great respect for a lot of aspects of indian culture (though there is a lot i dont agree with, but thats a digression im not getting into right now). but yeah ... india ... i actually plan on backpacking there in the spring, and getting the tattoo when i come back. its going to be a long time to wait, but if i fall in love with india as much as i think i will, THEN i think will be the only appropriate time to get the tattoo.
so my next piece is going to be a rib piece. i have the image in my head - finding a trustworthy artist to get it down for me might be difficult, but ive put a lot of thought into it, so i really cant just get anyone to do it for me. and then there is the cost issue. its going to be a fairly big piece so it might take a lot of sessions, because i am a brokeass and cant save worth a shit. i need an artist who is going to care about it as much as i do.
ahhh. im done being longwinded. for now.
i miss brampton. WHERE CAN I FIND A GOOD, TASTY CHEAP SAMOSA IN VANCOUVER!? seriously, what is wrong with this town? cheap sushi all over. i dont eat fish so i dont care. where is the good, cheap indian food!? can anyone tell me, please. im dying here.
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My nerd is going to hang out..
I bought 4 Warhammer 40k novels. Warhammer is along the line of Nerd as Dungeons and dragons. I love the novels. They are very dark and full of action.
I'm not much for indian food.. I find it way to spicy. I do like thai though. Since moving out of the GTA exotic food has gotten hard to get. I guess sometimes you get spoiled by culture...
I hear the ribs hurt.. good luck. I haven't gotten 1 tattoo yet