adrenalynne

So Jeremy and I went on a beer world tour last night at some random party with some of his friends in Etobicoke. so i met some of his friends. and got hammered. and then tried to convince him to sneak into my house so i could take advantage of him right proper. but he wasnt having any of it. seriously. im stunned.
is it possible that this guy is actually a good guy!?
i think he's just trying to get me to let my guard down and possibly actually like him.
dammit.

of course i have to find a good guy when i am [ I]in the process of leaving the province!
he is really sweet though. and not a musician for once. and he drives and works and says nice things about my smile and i have to not like him because then it will be hard to leave. and i dont want it to be hard to leave! this is supposed to be easy and now i have some guy fucking my shit up.
im debating just not calling him anymore ... or maybe i can just tell him how i feel about this whole thing.

oh god, I possibly may have more than likely sent the ex a txt. he called me back. i informed him i was stupid drunk and said id call him today and then i think that i hung up on him. im not calling him. im so ridiculous! hey! im out with a great dude, i think i'll drunk txt my loser ex! wtf was i thinking!?

my birthday is tomorrow. yay me!
im going to the frigate and firkin tonight i think. lame, and trasheriffic, but hey ... im in brampton. i may as well go where there will be people i know will buy me drinks. haha.