i'm thinking in purple today. lilacs and lavender and grays. sleeping somewhere between 3 and 13 hours a day. i cut my own hair from time to time. but i didn't today. i'm not talking just cutting bangs either, i mean full fledged holding hair in the back up and snipping. i find it liberating and i can't argue with the hairdresser for doing a...
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i have a cold 
or sinus infection or something. don't you hate it when you are all stuffy and your head feels like it is going to implode? i actually got out of the house this weekend! I went to the new Target and got lost for a few hours. spent way too much money on boxer brief panties and vneck tees. I really wish...
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or sinus infection or something. don't you hate it when you are all stuffy and your head feels like it is going to implode? i actually got out of the house this weekend! I went to the new Target and got lost for a few hours. spent way too much money on boxer brief panties and vneck tees. I really wish... Read More
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zenobia:
I have the same sleeping issues. I've lived with it all my life and at times it's been hard to live a "normal" life and maintain a "normal" schedule. I jsut found a way to make it work and so thats been very nice. I work 12 hour shifts(7p-7a) and go to school after getting off of work. Now I'm awake but being productive and exhausting myself so I can get a good sleep. It feels good I feel functional now. Before I always felt like I was living in a wierd fog. Sorry about rambling on for a bit 
p.s. i think you are amazingly beautiful. I read your journals sometimes and feel like your thoughts are similar to some of my thoughts and perceptions.
I hope thats not to creepy.
p.s. i think you are amazingly beautiful. I read your journals sometimes and feel like your thoughts are similar to some of my thoughts and perceptions.
I hope thats not to creepy.
swoodypantz:
heeheee! I hope htis means you are feeling better!! 
Miss you TOO!!
Miss you TOO!!
since i've received some requests for a new blog, here you go children of the night. the days become the night and the separation more and more slight. my bed is the place of unrest for rest is not my friend. i wish for things like new pens to write in my journal and new books to read and constantly decorate and redecorate my room....
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whitman38:
read marilynne robinson's "Housekeeping." One of the most astonishingly well-written and poetic novels ever written. On my Top 10 novels (or even books) to read before you die.
Which you ARE NOT going to do anytime soon.
Wish we could talk sometime. You sound like you need a friend something fierce.
:-)
-Phil (who thinks about you and worries)
Which you ARE NOT going to do anytime soon.
Wish we could talk sometime. You sound like you need a friend something fierce.
:-)
-Phil (who thinks about you and worries)
adonis:
i have friends.... i know people.... men want me... it's just i don't find that many people interesting
and then there was nothing. stalking an ex boyfriend I left over a year ago. hating his new girlfriend and her averageness and ability to make him spout kind words. severed heads entire my mind dancing and smiling at me. i don't know what it all means. this doctor says you need to see this other specialist and the specialist says I need to see...
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lazuli:
Thank you much! you have no idea how happy I am that you liked my set that much. I hope to see you around in the SG ranks!!
zenobia:
How are you feeling these days? Have they found out what is causing you so much pain and discomfort?
I admire your ability to put your true feelings on thoughts out for the world to see. I have similar thoughts and feelings a lot but never want to display. Only the people closest to me really see me.
I admire your ability to put your true feelings on thoughts out for the world to see. I have similar thoughts and feelings a lot but never want to display. Only the people closest to me really see me.
i have realized that when I am fucked up on pain killers it is nearly impossible to write in my journal. Some of the recent entries have been so crazy, like in a different language or a jumble of words or just ink lines and smears where I fell asleep while writing. It'll be like a conherent few paragraphs followed by sudden nonsense about tap...
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boleyn:
I think a journal entry about tap dancing in a circus themed bowling alley would be fantastic!
swoodypantz:
Hello beauteous one,
Even when you are fucked up on pain killers, you are still a damn poetess
Even when you are fucked up on pain killers, you are still a damn poetess
you know, I haven't had sex in about two months now.... I don't think I've gone that long without sex since I was sixteen 
And this is also the longest I have gone without a boyfriend. Not that I am a co-dependent type of person at all; someone has just always been there. I suppose one could say that right now is "me time." In...
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And this is also the longest I have gone without a boyfriend. Not that I am a co-dependent type of person at all; someone has just always been there. I suppose one could say that right now is "me time." In... Read More
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sindred:
Enjoy that whole-bed-to-yourself to the utmost. It's one of life's most underrated pleasures, methinks.
swoodypantz:
Totally agree with Sindred's sentiment above! And when you do have it (and the sex) again, you appreciate it so much more
sorry i have been out of the sg world for a while. i'm so glad to be back, and all i must admit, I HAVE THE GREATEST FRIENDS EVER!! Thanks to everyone for missing me and for always supporting me. the past few weeks can be described in a few words: doctors, hospitals, tests, medications. Unfortunately nothing has changed when it comes to my health......
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pixxii:
welcome back 
sindred:
Hahaha...welcome back baby!
I realized something last night.... God I have missed kissing women girls ladies chics. So gentle and like reaching into the depths of femininity and sensuality. Yummy. I also realized that I have been sheltering myself from developing friendships/relationships for some time now. I'm done with that. Even if I am sick and in pain and no doctor can figure out what is wrong with...
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adonis:
thanks you guys. you put a big fat smile on my face this morning.
Fucking exboyfriends. I have no idea what my problem is that I attract the crazies. I just want a normal guy... you know, no drama no drug addictions or stealing problems or pathological liars. someone who enjoys life. someone independent. oh fuck it. i don't really want anyone. Hey I already have a few jobs lined up for after my surgery and recovery. I should...
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boleyn:
It was great seeing you again on Friday! Sorry you couldn't stay longer
Oh, and don't even get me started on crazy ex's. I attract them too, it sucks.
Oh, and don't even get me started on crazy ex's. I attract them too, it sucks.
sindred:
Great to see what little of you I did Friday. 
I'm sorry you weren't feeling well. We'll hang out next time in a kitty-free zone.
I'm sorry you weren't feeling well. We'll hang out next time in a kitty-free zone. Got to meet up with steveneurotic, broken_princess, and Sindy666 from the SGC group yesterday. Lots of fun. Those are two beautiful gals inside and out. And Steve, well he's Steve, need I say more? I really really need to shoot a photo set. I think I've come up with an idea, but shhhh I can't tell you because it's a secret!! i'm posting...
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steveneurotic:
Yeah... i'm Steve. Hahaha. Had a fun time checking out your "equiptment" and "making music" 
Like Sindy and that broken_princess lady said though... you are extremely talented. It's beyond awesome to finally find another musician in the area.
Anyways... I suppose I should find some motivation to start getting ready for work. Bleh.
Talk to you later.
Like Sindy and that broken_princess lady said though... you are extremely talented. It's beyond awesome to finally find another musician in the area.
Anyways... I suppose I should find some motivation to start getting ready for work. Bleh.
Talk to you later.
when are you going to come out of the closet so we can be lovers darnit!!!!!
If I was, I would definitely want you to be my first lover, dahling
heehee