Music has always been curious to me. The theoretical side, the lyrical side and the pure musical side. The emotion it can carry and the way it can make you feel. What it does do is remain the same so you can hear it through different ears. The person I was 10-15 years ago would have experienced a song in a totally different way to the way I experience a song today.
In my opinion, that's what makes music wonderful. It makes music unique.
At the moment, I'm listening to Thinking Out Loud by Ed Sheeran. I was introduced to it by a young woman whom I was involved with. I fell for her which was unethical and, as a result, I lost my job, some friends and a lot of money. She vanished for a couple of months. I remember pining for her to return and when she did, I was attached. I did love her but she couldn't be with me. She pushed me away simply saying "no,no,no." I never got a reason which meant closure was hard as hell. This song in particular...... It hurt to listen to. I always thought of her and it took me a long time to let go. Now I can listen to this song and know that I'm not in love with her. I'm grateful that she caused a tornado in my life. I just listen to it now and hear an amazing song.
Another song is "All the same" by Sick Puppies. I used to listen to this song to my former best friend/ex girlfriend. She would sit in the car next to me and sing it out loud. We would drink and talk for hours. When we were sober we had nothing to talk about strangely. I used to do anything for her. She would take take take. It was hard and I still think of her through rose coloured glasses. We got together and it was magical at first but she needed to be with someone and couldn't be alone. It became codependency. While I was with her I knew she was looking for a way out. I kissed someone else. That someone else was the one who was mentioned in the previous paragraph. I was honest with her about what happened. I hurt her and I admitted it. I don't regret it as I was never happy. I could have handled things better. I lost my best friend. I yelled at her and pushed her away. We don't talk at all anymore. Too much hurt. Now to find a new best friend. I doubt she will ever return to my life.
I don't know why I wrote about this. I just felt the need to.