So the first week of my no porn, no sexual imagery and no fantasies has gone. It was a strange week: the first day I was quite fiddly and couldn't keep my hands still. My brain was screaming for it and I felt like tearing my hair out.
Sleep was a strange issue. First few nights I was sleeping 14-15 hours. Some nights I was sleeping less than 4. I would have lots of energy some days and others I would have none. I would feel depressed some days and feel fine the rest. I have started exercising more and it feels good. It doesn't feel like a chore.
I read on porn addiction and the brain. My brain is rebooting after a long time where I used porn and fantasy in my head to keep myself separate from others and prevent connections. There are a lot of abandonment issues in my life. Thankfully I have a great psychologist who knows me and can help me. I have read it can take months to reboot and I'm excited by this 😊
It's a challenge and that's for certain. I am winning this battle as I reboot my system. Only good things can come from this.