adele

Do you ever take a shower not because you need to but because you hope it will wash away how shitty you're feeling sometimes? It happens to me a lot when I get bummed out. I get this overwhelming urge to shower and of course, it doesn't really help.

I also have this urge to change everything. Well, not everything but at least make some changes, sort of drastic ones. Like...cut all my hair off and get another piercing. In my mind it seems as if I do that then I'll be one step forward on the path of moving on. Unfortunately I have only 16 dollars for the rest of the month so that won't be happening anytime soon.

This morning I had a pretty shitty dream. It was good, but it just had some pretty bad timing to come around. I guess I was still in High School or was at some sort of College event and I met this guy who was cute in that scruffy way I like and made me laugh and was smart and all the good stuff. He wanted to date me and it was nice. Not nice to wake up to and have end though.